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tw// alcohol mention ( death mention too )

eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,056 An Original Mixlorian
tw (alcohol mention. death and health issues related to alcohol.)
i have started my old antipsychotic medication and hoping they can help stable things out for me but im just rly exhausted. i’m dealing with huge health issues too bc of things that have happened so im struggling with that and all the tests but im also struggling with flashbacks from my mum passing away due to alcohol too. i rly miss her bc she was my everything but now i have nothing.

life is rly hectic for me rn especially with christmas next month then my birthday too im just rly stressed abt that even though its in december :/. i am rly exhausted but i just also feel bad bc i am not supporting anyone and it just is making me rly down and feeling so shit. helping ppl makes me feel gd abt myself and bc i enjoy supporting others so i feel like my gd is never gd enough :(.

i feel rly stupid for typing this bc it’s not important nor is it worth a reply. it’s just me being stupid and talking abt things worrying me but it’s not important and im rly sry i have posted this.
ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸

Comments

  • 63marie63marie Posts: 86 Budding Regular
    Hey @eylah, thank you for sharing this with us, you're not stupid at all and you deserve support. It sounds like you're going through so much rn, so it's completely valid to feel overwhelmed and miss your Mum, it sounds like she meant a lot to you and I'm so sorry you're struggling with all of this. It's also completely valid that you don't have the energy to support others right now with all that you've got going on. You deserve to put yourself first. You're not alone, we're all here to support you - you deserve support and to be heard <3
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,056 An Original Mixlorian
    63marie wrote: »
    Hey @eylah, thank you for sharing this with us, you're not stupid at all and you deserve support. It sounds like you're going through so much rn, so it's completely valid to feel overwhelmed and miss your Mum, it sounds like she meant a lot to you and I'm so sorry you're struggling with all of this. It's also completely valid that you don't have the energy to support others right now with all that you've got going on. You deserve to put yourself first. You're not alone, we're all here to support you - you deserve support and to be heard <3

    hey thankyou so much. i rly appreciate it <3 thankyou for replying to me <3
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 2,237 Boards Champion
    hey @eylah - hope you're doing okay today. your feelings are totally valid in this situation as always, and you can always come on here for support when you need - that is something you don't ever have to feel bad for. It definitely sounds like a lot is going on at the moment for you, with a lot of heavy feelings to try and manage, especially missing your mum which is something i can't even begin to imagine. remember to take care of yourself, even if it is little things you can do to make you smile like watching a comfort show or putting on your favourite song.

    sending you lots of hugs :3
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,056 An Original Mixlorian
    sinead276 wrote: »
    hey @eylah - hope you're doing okay today. your feelings are totally valid in this situation as always, and you can always come on here for support when you need - that is something you don't ever have to feel bad for. It definitely sounds like a lot is going on at the moment for you, with a lot of heavy feelings to try and manage, especially missing your mum which is something i can't even begin to imagine. remember to take care of yourself, even if it is little things you can do to make you smile like watching a comfort show or putting on your favourite song.

    sending you lots of hugs :3

    thankyou for the hugs i rly appreciate it <3 hugs are welcome :)
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • Ech0Ech0 Posts: 32 Boards Initiate
    @eylah I know it might not feel like it right now, but just being here and day-by-day working through all of this, is already a huge act of strength. You’re not failing anyone and you’re not falling short. You’ve spent so much time being there for others and it’s okay to let yourself lean on support too because you deserve that same care and kindness you give all of us . You never have to apologise for opening up and nothing you wrote feels silly at all. It just sounds like someone who’s been carrying a lot and is trying their best to stay afloat which deserves comfort.

    I’m really sorry for your loss and how you’re feeling the ache of missing your mum. When someone fills such a big space in your life, their absence can feel even sharper during times that are meant to be about closeness and family. It’s a reflection of the bond you shared and the ways she still lives in your heart and I hope you are doing alright.
    You don’t have to hold all of this by yourself. We’re right here with you, sitting beside you in whatever you’re feeling. Please take care and you deserve to be listened to and understood.
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