Invisible_me wrote: » Im taking it that I don't have another appointment yet as ive not had a call to book one hopefully it's just the one on Monday 🤞🏻. I have been preparing as much as I can by writing down things ive noticed in myself hopefully I can show/tell Dr D about it on Monday./quote] That's good amd hope the appointment goes well. Remember you can always hand the notes over to them for them to read jf you don't feel ablw to say it. Jus take the app as it goes and go with your emotions... don't beat yourself over it, so if you do cry it's fine.. I cat comment on your docs and others etc but mine would give me some time and space but obviously it would depend on their time schedules. The last 2 shifts I've had have been in a primary school as a SEN 1:1 TA which has been rewarding but I'm also in a mindset that I don't want to go back tomorrow or next week but ive already agreed to them and need the cash - i think im only sont want to go because I get exhausted with my MH and then supporting a complex child too is draining anyway. But I do enjoy the work 💕 It can be draining!! But guve yourself praise for trying to work..and good about supply is you have a break in between as well. Sorry for the late reply to this message, ive been exhausted with just about everything. But appreciate you taking time to respond @Invisible_me ❤️ I feel bad handing over all the notes I've made to Dr D like ive got 6ish pages and printouts of things I think will help me or that I want to look into trying. I try and take the appointment as it comes and allow my emotions out like they've booked it as a 15min appointment- which didn't end up going well last time because i had 2 GPs there and they just basically went through my record and then gave me crisis numbers (so was pointless in my eyes). Hopefully this time though I can be alittle but more open and go with my emotions. Thank you 💛 I didn't think this work would be too draining but I didn't account for the child's complexity etc. But i am glad I get s break after next week because its half term for them and I start working properly on the holiday site again. I am going to still look into occassional TA work but idk yet. Invisible_me wrote: » Good luck for tomorrow 😀 Thank you, I'm so anxious for it but am planning on sandwiching this appointment between 2 gym sessions to help me winddown and decompress
Im taking it that I don't have another appointment yet as ive not had a call to book one hopefully it's just the one on Monday 🤞🏻. I have been preparing as much as I can by writing down things ive noticed in myself hopefully I can show/tell Dr D about it on Monday./quote] That's good amd hope the appointment goes well. Remember you can always hand the notes over to them for them to read jf you don't feel ablw to say it. Jus take the app as it goes and go with your emotions... don't beat yourself over it, so if you do cry it's fine.. I cat comment on your docs and others etc but mine would give me some time and space but obviously it would depend on their time schedules. The last 2 shifts I've had have been in a primary school as a SEN 1:1 TA which has been rewarding but I'm also in a mindset that I don't want to go back tomorrow or next week but ive already agreed to them and need the cash - i think im only sont want to go because I get exhausted with my MH and then supporting a complex child too is draining anyway. But I do enjoy the work 💕 It can be draining!! But guve yourself praise for trying to work..and good about supply is you have a break in between as well.
The last 2 shifts I've had have been in a primary school as a SEN 1:1 TA which has been rewarding but I'm also in a mindset that I don't want to go back tomorrow or next week but ive already agreed to them and need the cash - i think im only sont want to go because I get exhausted with my MH and then supporting a complex child too is draining anyway. But I do enjoy the work 💕
Invisible_me wrote: » Good luck for tomorrow 😀
Invisible_me wrote: » @Lottie5433 . I can hear how anxious you are for tomorrow. Just see how it does Wow seems like you've got a lot prepared and yiu know what you are going for and the outcome. I guess your feeling bad because of the volume of notes, is that right? A It just sounds like you have a lot going on hence wrote it all down and there's nothing wrong in expressing yourself in the written format. Thinking from doctors perspective...is there way you can concise it down a little maybe bulletpoint in and then they can allow you to expand on it verbally? I've got the docs on Wednesday and scared myself!! Ive wrote things down but I'm even scared to do that', I've just bullet pointed out and asked her to ask me to expand on it... hope both of our appts go okay,
Lottie5433 wrote: » Invisible_me wrote: » @Lottie5433 . I can hear how anxious you are for tomorrow. Just see how it does Wow seems like you've got a lot prepared and yiu know what you are going for and the outcome. I guess your feeling bad because of the volume of notes, is that right? A It just sounds like you have a lot going on hence wrote it all down and there's nothing wrong in expressing yourself in the written format. Thinking from doctors perspective...is there way you can concise it down a little maybe bulletpoint in and then they can allow you to expand on it verbally? I've got the docs on Wednesday and scared myself!! Ive wrote things down but I'm even scared to do that', I've just bullet pointed out and asked her to ask me to expand on it... hope both of our appts go okay, I am super anxious mainly coz it's a different person I do have a lot i want to share but I guess it is the volume I have in notes that's make me feel bad about it. Ive tried to condense them down to bullet points but ive just given up with trying that now. Bit too late. I'm glad you've prepared yourself for ypur appointment too - i saw your thread on it and was meant to write a reaponse to it. Hope your appointment goes well @Invisible_me ❤️
Thank you... ive not even told my mum about it. And don't want to hide it from her either... im also scared to tell her.. - will it trigger safeguarding?? Also it's like getting there, waiting room etc. Scared... I won't hijack your thread though..
Lottie5433 wrote: » Just another update after my appointment today. It was a kinda positve appointment- was stressed and anxious waiting because they were running late and then didn't know which room I was meant to be going to. Whilst I was there I was asked why I was here and what they could help me with: so I just blurted out that ive been struggling with anxiety, depression, self-harm and suicidality and have been for a while but has got more intense. Dr D then got me to fill out 3 questionnaires about anxiety and depression- which i showed i have moderate anxiety but basically chronic depression. He asked about prior treatments and if ive had therapy for any of this. Given my answer to this he's upped my medication (I didn't really want this but thats all they can do for me presently) he also referred me back to the MH team as an Urgent referral for advice/2nd opinion. Idk what to think of this coz they can't do anything as they are still processing my CEDT referral - i also mentioned this to Dr D. I have to go back in 4 weeks to see him again to see if anythings improved and im getting 'better' bit im doubtful anything would have changed tbh. I also asked about a letter to say im healthy enough to go to camp America this summer - but he said he would leave it up to the MH team to decide. So im going to ask the ED health nurse on Wednesday if they can provide a with this. I just dont want to keep feeling like this and being weighted down by it all. I just desperately want an out to it all I'm fed up with a repetitive cycle that doesn't have an end ever 😩
Hiya so that sounds mainly positive amd well done for telling them all that!seems like you just blurted it out. Did you hand the notes in? I guess GPS are put in a difficult situation sometimes they are supposed to know what to do but actually what they van do its quite limited. I guess all they van do is wait for referrals to come through or call in for urgent. How are you coping with uppd dose of meds? I knkw itsbhard to imagine things ever changing but don't beat yourself up to it, it will hopefully get manageable just takes time and hopefully you'll get support along the way. Its good his rebooked you in!
Sian321 wrote: » Hey @Lottie5433 , thank you so much for this message and for your trust in sharing with us. I hear that you're petrified right now about missing this call from your MH team, and what they might say on the call. That is so valid, and it sounds really frightening not to know what might happen next. It's so positive that you're messaging us here, and I also want to acknowledge the courage that it takes to open up to your GP and ED health nurse too. I hear it's extreamly scary, and you deserve so much support and kindness around this. What do you hope the outcome will be from the call with the mental health team today? Is there anything you're wishing you could ask them for, or that you'd really like them to understand? We're here to listen
Lottie5433 wrote: » Another kinda update with this whole situation: it isn't even to do with the GP appointment as im done with them just waiting for my next one in about 3 weeks (need to book it tbh though). But I had my old ED therapist message me today about having a chat to see how I am with my wellbeing etc. I was a little reluctant to message back and agree to it just coz it was at work and felt abit uncomfy. Anyway I did end up having a chat with him on a video call whilst sat in my car. He was definitely told by the health nurse what had been going on recently as he didnt focus on anything to do with my ED at all not till the last 5 minutes. However, he was concerned with the frequency of my suicidal thoughts and how i have acted on these and not recieved help recently * im safe now though *. He breifly said that it seems I've lost basically everything and have no fear of death or anything like that. We did discuss my thoughts a little bit and talk about my safety etc - tbh I'm surprised I was honest coz im not always honest about my thoughts and will pretend im fine. My old therapist has agreed to provide kinda weekly wellbeing calls. I have one next Wednesday with him at like 12pm (noon) and then he's on annual leave begining of March so idk what's happening then. Not looking forward to next one though coz we are going to talk abit more about my eating habits because since leaving therapy (well getting discharged) things have been all over the place - he doesn't want to go over things we already did in the past therapy session but I feel like we will. I know everything already that i should be doing and what I need to do but its just hard. Still not heard back from CMHT with this phone call - idk if I phone them again to find out or wait and see if they contact me. Like in my head I want to find out why they phoned me but then the anxiety makes it difficult to even attempt to make a call. I just dont know what to do. There's too many things happening all at once too much uncertainty in a way. Im exhausted with everything- but then that's coz I'll mask constantly
Invisible_me wrote: » I thibk its good your good therapist has agreed to do wellbeing calls with you, often it just gets cut off! It's hard being honest, but be honest and tell them how things are within reason. It's exhausting carrying on when you are hiding things! Is the CMHT call the one you mussed? Did they leave a voicemail, message email? You could wait a but or phone up abs ask, maybe your therapist or GP coild find out? I really hope this support carries on for you , it goes well.... and not like mine 😒
