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TW// self harm
Rose113
Community Connector Posts: 3,581 Community Veteran
For the record I’m safe
So tonight had a rough night and basically relapsed a lot and I know probably gonna ask why I didn’t talk to a helpline but I didn’t talk to one because there’s nothing to say to them, I hurt myself because I felt the need to punish myself and because I wanted to watch myself suffer
I have to see Emma tomorrow which I was scared about the last batch but now I’m scared about tonight’s, I know she will most likely ask fist aid to come and probably bandage me up but I feel like I’m just gonna break down crying to her…
If I see her tomorrow in the corridor or something I’m kinda hoping she doesn’t say anything to escape the embarrassment of having to tell her what I’ve done
So tonight had a rough night and basically relapsed a lot and I know probably gonna ask why I didn’t talk to a helpline but I didn’t talk to one because there’s nothing to say to them, I hurt myself because I felt the need to punish myself and because I wanted to watch myself suffer
I have to see Emma tomorrow which I was scared about the last batch but now I’m scared about tonight’s, I know she will most likely ask fist aid to come and probably bandage me up but I feel like I’m just gonna break down crying to her…
If I see her tomorrow in the corridor or something I’m kinda hoping she doesn’t say anything to escape the embarrassment of having to tell her what I’ve done
Sometimes when the people most like you don't love you, it is a hurt that can cause the greatest pain, and this pain can lead you to hate everything.
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