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Hi All. I need some support and advice! its a long one! I'm 21 and worked as a childminding assiasnt unfortunely the childminder was barred due a allergation was made against her. well at the end of last year I ended all contact with her due to her lieing and trying to blame me. but while working we got on really well she became like a 2nd mum to me. but now m struggling as to weather she was just nice or she was trying to zapped me and manipulate me,we had our arguments if she wanted to me to do something and I didn't want to she get upset I stop talking then she would try and bribe me to talk to her again, like I buy you this and that, she often brought me gifts which at time I thought was nice some tops pjs and even get me coke and choclate everyday to get me through a busy day with kids!. she told me things and I had to swear to secerecy. I wasn't allowed to tell parents friends ect.at the time I thought she was the best person in the world. I hate her 1 minute then she talk me round the next. I feel like she mentally and emotionally abused me and I'm struggling. My Mum has dared me to get in contact with her and not to talk to her if I see her, she lives in the same village as me and I saw her last night for the first time since I ended contact but she didn't see me we was in the same shop. I actually hid because I didn't want to come face to face with her, ive been applying for jobs since last july and unfortunely having no luck. its been a year and I cant shift this feeling and I don't know what to do. I have blocked her contact details via social media ect. I just feel like shes got away with way to much. I also have a feeling she still having children on the sly and getting cash in the hand which if she gets caught being barred can she get in more trouble? I need help and advice on how to try and get through these feelings and fight this. and with her still having children what do you do?what should I do? kind regards Jess