The hospital have been really trying to get hold of me for the last few days and I've been too afraid to answer their calls. Whilst admitted I had a few cardiac problems, fainting episodes, as well as my haematoma. Eventually the call was answered and they want me back in sooner rather than later. They didn't tell me why and the information I have is limited. It is giving me so much anxiety. I don't know how to cope. I'm still in a bit of pain, and struggle with my breathing at times. I was thinking of going to a GP this week but then figured what's the point? Like I seem to deserve all these issues. They wouldn't happen on their own. If I had just sucked it up and not had surgery then these issues wouldn't be here. Even my old GP said I was too young to have the surgery.
I have just lost all hope in life now. I'm sorry this isn't a happy or hopeful post or involve any good news whatsoever. Life just could not get any worse right now.
(Sorry. Need to rant because it seems my voice goes unheard a lot of the time. I don't expect anybody to read or reply. Just needed to be said.)
I am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.