Don’t have the energy anymore

River

I’m so tired of all the drama that’s going on, I can’t cope with it it’s too much, it’s confusing and it’s hurting. The past month or so I’ve had my heart broken more than fixed. People saying “I don’t know if I should tell you because it might hurt” then obviously then I want to know but then it does fucking hurt so bad. My heart is killing and I’ve completely broken down tonight from everything. Bawling my eyes out and listening to sad songs. I want this pain to be gone it hurts. It hurts so bad. There’s been so much go on, not just drama but other shit. I want to shut the world out. Why does caring for people backfire and hurt so much. Why can’t I just delete everything and ghost the world till I feel better because I genuinely can’t do it. I feel lost 😭 part of me wishes I wasn’t here :/

Nathan

https://community.themix.org.uk/discussion/3608612/don-t-have-the-energy-anymore

@River i know this might not mean much, but you absolutely shouldn't have to go through any of this at all. I can tell it's been a lot building up to this breaking point and it sounds so crushing and exhausting for you.

It might be worth, just for a short while, putting some distance between you, all of that drama and the people who are making you feel this way, to be able to recharge from it all. Because caring so much for those people, and ending up feeling this way because of it isn't something that's sustainable for you or good for your mental health. And emotional exhaustion is something builds up over time until breaking points like this.

It's okay to take a bit of break from it all, and to focus on taking care of your own mental health for now, because you honestly shouldn't have had to have dealt with any of this, or been left to get to this point mentally.