Intrusive Thoughts (food and eating)

Amy22

I don't normally reach out on here as much as I should really. I guess I have a habit of bottling things up before its too late and then I feel anxious.

Recently I've been having intrusive thoughts but its to do with eating and food. Normally I love food, I enjoy every moment of when I get to eat. But as of lately I haven't been feeling great as I have been getting intrusive thoughts which tell me the food looks bad or something worse.

Sometimes it will tell me that the food is something gross like worms or something

. I think it has stemmed from possibly im a celeb being on and me having sensory issues watching that show as well as recently learning about healthy eating in my college class/internship im doing. I hate that I have been like this. I feel ungrateful because I think of those things then I make a noise and dont feel like eating. I should be more grateful because eating is important and some people don't have food either. I just feel like my intrusive thoughts are silly or stupid. I need to grow up to be fair.

Verity

Hello @Amy22 thank you for sharing this and being so transparent with what you have been going through. It is definately best not to bottle things up but of course, we undertsand that it's not always easy to express how you feel. You are really brave taking the step to get your emotions out there. You are definately not 'stupid' or 'silly', it sounds like this is a difficult sitationship for you and you should give yourself all the grace you can.

You mentioned it may be triggered from a mixture of watching I'm a celebrity and learning about healthy eating, I'm wondering if something like this has triggered you before or anything familiar to it?