Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? w/c 24.11.25

Nemuritai

Hey @Sian321, thanks for checking in. I really appreciate the effort you put into supporting everyone here even though our circumstances are all so different, that means a lot.

It's kind of difficult to explain but I've been struggling with my mental health more than usual this past week, it's just been a lot to deal with and I've broke down crying several times which feels embarrassing, since I usually try my best to stay strong and not fall apart. But slowing down and doing comforting things is really helpful when I feel like this - especially warm cups of coffee, reading, and I also like watching Bluey when things are difficult. I'll never get too old for Bluey lol

Lottie5433

Nemuritai wrote: »

Lottie5433 wrote: »

I can’t sleep right now, and I’m just crying and feel like I’m on the verge of a panic attack. I hate myself for this right now

Hey @Lottie5433, I just wanted to check in. I'm sorry to hear about last night, that sounds really upsetting. How are feeling today? We're here for you

Hi @Nemuritai , last night was upsetting didn’t sleep for ages and was up most of the night. Today I’m just feeling exhausted and like I kinda want to push my bf away, he thinks something is up but I can’t talk about what’s wrong with me with anyone

Sian321 wrote: »

Hey @Lottie5433 , how are you doing this morning? It sounds like it might have been a really difficult night. What was happening for you? We're here to listen if you'd feel comfortable sharing.

Hi @Sian321 , I’m not great this morning, I’m exhausted and tired, don’t really want to eat or do anything and then there are some not helpful thoughts etc. I’m not sure what was happening really, I went to bed fine woke up at like 12:30ish to find my bf wasn’t next to me - which I guess scared me. Turns out he was sleeping on the sofa but I don’t know what it was I just couldn’t cope with the fact he wasn’t with me. So I tried going back to sleep but like I couldn’t instead I cried and had a panic attack (not helpful when my asthma is not great either) then I couldn’t cope and started hitting myself on the head because that was the only thing that seemed to help everything. I thought playing a game or watching TikTok would help but it didn’t. So just sat crying until I fell asleep at like 3am and then woke up in a panic at 5/6am and then woke up at 8am and got ready for the day.
I can just feel more panic coming on like my body is shaking and I can feel my heart beating and like I can feel everything in my body.
Sorry for the long message back, appreciate you and others checking in

Redemption

I might have to go to this football get together and I don’t really want to go

Nemuritai

@Lottie5433 sorry for the late reply. That sounds like a really difficult night and it's understandable you feel exhausted now. It sounds really hard to deal with, and you're so brave for keeping on going and getting through each day. I know that can be hard sometimes, especially when the panic arrives like that. I truly hope you're able to get a little more rest tonight, and please take care of yourself. You matter so much to the people around you, and to this community, and we're all here for you if you need someone to listen. Sending virtual hugs