Depressed rant with suicidal thoughts (no plan)

bignosegirly0

I’ve cried my ass off all night and cried when getting ready for work. I hate being alive. I just want to give up.


I was suppose to discuss planning a day where I can buy a bike in order to get to my GP without my family knowing I’m purchasing anti-depressants. But my family wanted me to focus on preparing for my interview for a graphic design apprenticeship. It’s understandable, but it’s annoying that I had no time to treat myself because I’m having more panic attacks and mental breakdowns each work day due to being understaff because of labour laws.

Redemption

@bignosegirly0 Im so sorry things are horrible for you, Ive left some links to support services on your other thread. Please remember you're amazing no matter what is said or is done, you're so worthy. Time to yourself is definitely something you should have please do get some time for yourself, your mental health and well-being is so so important. You're doing things to change too which is great, things will get better and we'll be here up to then and after they do ❤️.

shannon_164

hey @bignosegirly0 🙂

i’m really sorry you’re feeling so overwhelmed right now - i can only imagine how difficult things must feel for you. it sounds like you’re carrying so much on your own, trying to hold it together at work, plan for yourself and also meet your family’s expectations too - anyone in you that situation would be exhausted!

you are so deserving of a space to breathe and take care of yourself, just in case you need im going to add some other options for support below.

if you’re feeling unsafe pls reach out for immediate support from the following:
nhs 111 - england / scotland / wales (option 2 for mental health)

phone first - northern ireland (8am-6pm monday-friday; the number will vary depending on the health & social care trust area that you live in)

out of hours - northern ireland (6pm-7:30am monday-friday, 24/7 weekends; the number will vary depending on the health & social care trust area that you live in)

999 - england / scotland / wales / northern ireland

uk helplines - some of these are specific to england / scotland / wales / northern ireland & also depend on age too:
childline (24/7) - call 08001111

shout (24/7) - text ‘shout’ to 85258

hopeline (24/7) - text 88247

samaritans (24/7) - call 116123

lifeline (24/7) - call 08088088000

papyrus (24/7) - call 08000684141

inspire wellbeing (24/7) - call 08081890036

community advice and listening line (24/7) - call 0800132737

knus (24/7) - whatsapp 07700165687

mind (9am-6pm) - call 03001233393

rethink mental illness (9:30am-4pm) - call 03005000927

kooth (12pm-10pm) - webchat on website

saneline (4pm-10pm) - call 03003047000

calm (5pm-12am) - call 0800585858

suicide prevention uk (6pm-12am) - call 08005870800

sos (8pm-12am) - call 08001151505

we’re all so proud of you