Denial

Animalloverb

I know most people here will react alright about it, but it's just this world is mad and a lot of people are now against it and I don't necessarily want to give people a reason to have a bad opinion about me if you get what I mean.

I Don't even know if I should say it either, I know last night a lot of you were so supportive of my decisions on not sharing as of yet but I know it would be better to talk about it but it's just part of my mind is stopping me from saying it.

As I said last night, I'm in denial about a particular thing as I don't really believe the results to be honest.

I took a test and it has come back positive- not sure if I should say what type of test I took though. But anyway the positive result has thrown me off guard.

Blue_lily

@Animalloverb

This community is here for you whenever you need.

It is completely ok to wait until you feel comfortable and ready to share.

Hoping you are ok

Azziman

Hi @Animalloverb, we're here to support you. Whatever it is, it's your choice as to when and with whom you share the information that you've received. Denial is a difficult feeling, because the information we have in front of us is opposed to what we believe to be true, so reconciling the two is a challenge. Give yourself time to process things, seek advice etc - whatever you feel you need. We're here to listen to you in any case.

Sian321

Hi @Animalloverb , how are you doing? I just wanted to check in. I second what @Blue_lily and @Azziman have shared here - we're here for you whenever you're ready, and you're allowed to go at your own pace.

What did it feel like to share that you are feeling in denial right now?

Animalloverb

@Sian321
I'm not doing great, I don't even know what is going on with me. I'm stressed, fustrated, upset. I'm just so emotional and feel like I'm about to break.

It felt scary, It's a Hard thing to admit, it's hard to be honest and say I'm in denial.

Animalloverb

Thank you @Blue_lily and @Azziman

Sian321

@Animalloverb , I hear you, and it sounds like it might have taken a lot of courage to name the fact you're feeling like you're in denial. That was really hard to admit, and scary. You're doing so well to talk about this, and we're here to take everything at your pace.

What you've described sounds really tough - feeling stressed, frustrated, and upset, with all those feelings bubbling over to the point where you feel like you're about to break. That sounds so overwhelming and a lot to hold. Can I ask, what do you imagine 'breaking' could look like?

We're here for you, and our SHOUT service is here too 24/7 if you wish for a space to talk in more depth tonight or these next few days about anything that's on your mind.

Animalloverb

@Sian321
By "breaking" I mean like breaking down into tears, not being able to hold my emotions inside.
Sorry I should of done better at explaining, I just find it hard to put the way I'm feeling into simple terms