im sry for writing this and posting it but i rly need to let everything out. i’ve been struggling since the time i woke up bc it’s 1 yr without my mum. i know some of my friends have told me that i should ‘be over it’ or ‘gotten over it’ but i can’t get over the fact that my mum is never coming back. i have lost everyone in my life . i don’t have any family close by bc of reasons in the past to do with my dad etc i don’t have contact with him bc of stuff that happened but i just feel so alone. im rly hurting and i have tried occupying my brain today by going to the range etc going to the beach but nothing has worked. i feel numb i feel so many emotions and things all at once my brain and body hurt. i want to remember my mum without feeling sad every time.
. it’s so heartbreaking bc i wish my bf was here to comfort me but he’s away today so i am sat in my flat alone crying. i feel pain and hurt but this is a lot deeper and stronger.
it’s so hard and once again im sry for posting this. i just rly miss her
. she was my best friend my everything and that her mental health and alcohol took her away from me. it’s so not fair never will be.
i miss you mum. im going to try cooking some dinner later and try sleep
.
