Anybody want to vent or chat about anything? (Triggering stuff edition) w/c 15.09.25

Animalloverb

I am not sure to be honest @Sian321

It's mostly because I have other stuff going on in my life too right now that I am trying to sort out, I know I will be able to manage it all but my main problem is what if I can't get there to him for a particular reason, like that is a parents responsibility and if I am unable to show up for him for a reason then that automatically makes me a made parent.

I haven't really spoken to anyone else about it, I know that my choice is the best way to go for this kid to live the best life he can, but at the same time another part of me is doubting myself, doubting that I will be able to look after him in the best way, thinking I won't be able to give him the life he deserves.

I am not necessarily afraid of certain people judging me, I mean overall, as the area I live in, people can be quite judgy when it comes to these kind of things.

There are a lot of people who think that this is irresponsible, and that they are throwing their life away. Which I am not doing, I am deciding to get custody of this child because I know that I can give him the best life even if I am currently second guessing whether I can or not.

I know I can provide everything for this kid, I have a lot of experience with children too so it isn't like I have never looked after a young child before, but it kind of feels different because I am going to be the one responsible for the kid, I will be the one that looks after him, provides for him, the one who makes sure he gets his education, make medical decisions. It's a huge responsibility.

Lottie5433

I’m just done with everything
With work
Life
Just everything
I feel sick to my stomach and just don’t see much point most of the time
The only thigg by a that keep me going are my dog and my bf
Can’t talk to him right now as I know what he’d say and tell me I need to talk to someone etc but can’t so that either

Oops just realised this in the wrong week