Already a shit day

Rose113

I woke up thinking I was late for my exam and got myself into a panic over it and then I relapsed because my emotions went through the roof and I was just feeling done by 6am this morning so I relapsed again and then I’ve had to just leave it to do whatever it’s doing cos I was gonna be late for the bus so after my exam gonna have to see if Emma or Janis is in and I’ll probably be safeguarded over it which is just fucking great. Then as I was walking a car kept stopping right in front of me. I’ve got to the bus stop and now I’m feeling so dizzy cos I’ve practically had to run I’m so fucking stressed out.

I ain’t gonna be in the right headspace for this stupid exam which is just fucking great that’s another fail for me 👍🏻

Honestly I’m just fucking done at this point, I’m safe but I’m sick of everything and just want to shut the world out and go into hiding fuck my life.

shannon_164

hey @Rose113 🙂

i’m really sorry you’re feeling this way, that sounds like an absolutely overwhelming morning and it makes total sense that you’re exhausted and on edge right now. i’m really proud of you for still getting yourself to the bus and showing up for the exam even though everything feels so heavy, that takes serious strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now!

pls don’t be too hard on yourself about the relapse. you’re not weak or broken, you’re someone dealing with a lot, and that’s not something to feel ashamed about. try not to let your brain convince you that this exam defines you, it really doesn’t. you are so much more than a bad day or an exam.

i hope that you can get some support from emma or janis! you deserve to feel supported, not judged.

we all care about you