Last post abt support or anything included

Rose113

So things have been made clear recently on and off the mix that I’m better off being the supporter than asking for support so taken that into consideration and before anyone tells me otherwise no I do not matter and my feelings are irrelevant and telling me otherwise won’t make a difference.

My mental health is shit, my physical health is shit but doesn’t matter to anyone so easier to bottle up than waste time because no one gives a shit about me ever anywhere. I’ve lost my energy to care and not bothering anyone with my problems again.

So for now I’ll just give support and shove my problems away as that’s easier than being a big fat worthless burden and saves the consequences of opening up to people

No longer begging or asking for support because helplines, support places, people, the mh system are all the same…every.single.time. So I cba anymore easier to bottle everything up until I’m dead tbh. Cos not like anyone would take the time to listen to me lol cos that’s just wishful thinking.

So yep if anyone needs support let me know 👍🏻 will be here with a smile on my face instead of causing issues.

Take care and night!

eylah

you matter and your feelings/thoughts matter too @Rose113 . we’re here for you as much as you’re here for us. pls dont feel like you have to bottle things up bc you matter. im always here to listen and talk abt how youre feeling. youre not alone

Rose113

I don’t matter I never have and I never will, I just got to get a grip and cope alone

DonnerKebab

Rose, I thought the same. Still do a bit about bottling it up and leaving it. But trust me, I've been bottling it up for such a long time, that it's made me numb mentally to everything. I don't want the same thing to happen to you, because for me it's not, how shall we say.... living, it's just existing. So please, vent your frustrations. Don't keep it bottled up and make the same mistake I did. There are people listening. Even if we can't offer much advice, just getting it of your chest makes a huge difference.

Rose113

No point I’ve bottled everything up for years anyway and only shared the tiny stuff, not much difference. Talking doesn’t help and why force anyone listen to me anyway

DonnerKebab

Because you're not forcing us to listen. We want to listen. I only joined this community yesterday, so I've not really had much chance to listen to anybody here. And trust me, I can only speak from my own experience, but I've bottled up literal hell, since i was 4 years old. 19 years of hell later, and I'm still bottling up literal hell. And at a certain point, I stopped feeling anything emotionally anymore. It was just emptiness. My dad died and wrote me out of his £100,000 will, and I didn't feel a thing. Not joy, or sadness, or anger, just nothing. That's how bad the numbness is emotionally. So please, don't end up where I am. I really don't want that for you. I'm on a therapy waiting list, and honestly, it's going to be a nightmare to unpack everything for me at this stage. So please understand, I'm listening, because i want to. You're not forcing anybody to listen. Me and the other's here want to listen to you, like you have for others. And maybe talking doesn't help, but venting might, just might, make it a little easier for you rather than just bottling it up like i did you know.