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Don't want to go volunteering tomorrow
Redemption
Community Connector Posts: 4,054 Community Veteran
If I hadn't fumbled my assessment I would have started my work placement tomorrow but because I did I’m at my volunteering role instead which I find dull. I do like steam cleaning, it’s not unbearable and it gets me out of the house, but it’s boring and not what I expected to be doing, steam cleaning clothes. I waited months for that placement assessment session but I knew I couldn’t rely on it so I’ve been trying my best in the background, applying for jobs and looking into other options. There was possibly a backup plan but I didn’t get that either and right now I don’t have anything officially lined up. There are still potential opportunities like the placement organisation I’m working with who can help me get more placements and support me with getting into work, Im also contacting recruitment agencies, I sent my cv to one but I’ve already done two assessments with them and didn’t succeed in either. I can’t believe I was late to the last one, it feels so stupid of me, and next time I’m definitely going to leave earlier. It’s frustrating because that was my opportunity to shine and I completely fumbled it. This whole situation has been so tough and uncertain for so long and it impacted me for so long.
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I hear that going to volunteering almost feels like rubbing salt in the wound that you are not quite where you want to be right now and that your potential placements didn't go as you hoped. It sounds really positive that you have identified things you could do next time such as leaving earlier so you can get there earlier rather than worrying about being late. How did you find your day of volunteering in the end?
I appreciate how draining this all has been for you living this reality everyday where it feels like you might be constantly fighting up hill, you're doing good to still be trying and it speaks a lot about you and your character. We hope that the placement organisation can get some new things lined up for you again soon!
Cheers @Leyla , I really appreciate the reply. It went ok like they said I'm quiet there but I'm a hard worker like I just get on with the job. It's just it was hitting during my role during my task that I didn't get on the placement and just being at a volunteering role which I didn't want to ever really want to do and how I'm not into work yet, how I was at the volunteering role instead of the placement, like the placement would have been unpaid too but it would have been with the chance of permanent role at the end of it which would have felt more certain instead of volunteering for nothing garanteed and it has been months now, I just want an opportunity secured and I flopped it so I was just there at my role feeling like crying a bit. Thanks so much for asking and replying to me though Leyla ❤️.