[TW//]I think I’m just done trying.

Lottie5433

Deleted please ignore me !

Leyla

Hi Lottie,

I know you've deleted the content of this post and asked for us to ignore it, but we wanted to acknowledge that we see that maybe you had something on your mind, and perhaps a part of you wanted to reach out, but there was some inner conflict which led you to delete it. We 100% respect your boundaries of what you wish to share, but if you did wish to talk further on this thread, then we and the rest of The Mix Community are one hundred percent here for you!

Lottie5433

I did have something on my mind @Leyla , but i just couldn't keep it up.
The inner voice told me to take it down, but i physically coildnt take it down so I deleted the content so no one could see what i said.
No I dont need anyone I can just be ignored, tking up too much space

Sian321

Just want to acknowlegde how hard that conflict with that inner voice is, Lottie. And there's no pressure at all from our side. You belong here within Community just as much as every other member. And even if you went to delete the post afterwards, the fact that you initially reached out and posted it feels significant. Sending lots of care

Lottie5433

@Sian321 Tbh I deleted it coz most likely it would have raised some concern and I can't be dealing with anymore of that this week

Lottie5433

This is what i initally posted but got paranoid/scared of what would be said so got rid of it. But I'm going to put it in a spoiler coz it might trigger some people and I dont really want that.

Reaching out for mental health support has become more exhausting than helpful. I’ve tried the helplines. The professionals. The appointments. The meds. The “non-judgmental” chats. And yet… I feel more unheard, more frustrated, and more hollow than ever.

How am I supposed to keep trying when I get told, “We aren’t the service for you,” or “Call us back if you feel unsafe”? What’s the point in reaching out when it feels like I’m just repeating myself to people who either can’t or won’t help in a way that actually reaches me?

I lie to the people who say they care because the truth feels like too much—for me and for them. I’m tired of putting in the effort only to be met with empty reassurances and protocols that feel more like red tape than real care.

So I think I’m done. Done reaching out. Done trying to be “helped.” Done showing the broken parts. I’ll cancel the appointments. Stop the meds. Pull the mask back on and fake my way through life again, no matter how exhausting that act is.

I don’t want to be a burden. I just want the noise to stop

Lottie5433

Ive actually given up with reaching out to helplines now.
Just going to cut everyone out clearly im an inconvenience and not worth anyones time.

Why do I even reach out at this point if I get the same response each and everytime. No judgemental services dont even care anymore, crisis text dont care and just abandoned chat after a short time. So is there any point anymore

roku767

If helplines or crisis services haven’t been helpful, it might be worth looking into other options. Some services offer more personalized support or different ways of reaching out, like local face-to-face support groups, peer support networks, or even online forums with a smaller, more consistent group of people.