Daunted about preparing to move out

Creativeboy23

Hello.

I have been feeling daunted about preparing to move out. It made me procrastinate letting my dad know about the estimated move-in time. I have also been worried about how he would react to me informing him when they are going to give the property to the person who wants to move in quickly.

It feels awkward to empathise with him if my thought comes true when he has not treated me right in the past. It triggered a thought that my crisis worker would be telling me straight that my thinking is not accurate because she has told me previously that what I was thinking in a situation was incorrect. I felt invalidated because she did not give my thought space and try to understand it.

I have been thinking that my support workers and my dad are expecting me to knowledgeable about houses when it is the first time making a decision about long term properties. I had a memory of my support worker telling me that I have to decide I am the adult. The support worker’s comment felt dismissive, condescending, and isolating because it did not consider that the complexity of making decisions about housing and leaves me alone without guidance to make a big decision as a young adult.

I have been thinking I do not have the space to take the time process my emotions. I feel pressured to immediately think about other perspectives because I have internalised the message from the crisis worker that I should think about my feelings and others feelings equally. It is like I am prioritising others’ feelings.


I have spent time considering potential alternative perspectives, but my feelings and thoughts are still valid.