i had surgery today :( *trigger warning?* )

eylah

i had surgery this morning and im just feeling exhausted and mentally struggling bc i was told by the surgeon that im going to need to have another surgery to complete the thing thats wrong. im feeling rly sad bc i was hoping that after today that it was going to be done and sorted but he said it needs one more surgery. bc of my mum passing in the hospital i had the surgery in im feeling rly sad and mixed emotions from everything that has happened today. its been a rly long day but im able to go home in a bit but surgery took a few hours but im feeling better from the anaestic. rn i could do with my mum but i cant have her here bc shes a beautiful angel in heaven. why does life suck so much im happy how kind the surgeon and drs were but i am struggling so much bc it is all so much to take in. im tired and just want everything to end bc it is hurting my head massively.

AnonymousToe

You’re doing so well @eylah well done for getting the surgery that’s so rubbish that you need another one. try to focus on the fact that you’ve got through it. Proud of you

eylah

thankyou @AnonymousToe

Amy22

@eylah oh gosh that sounds like a lot to be going through right now especially having to have a second operation/surgery as well. Im glad that the first surgery did okay in the end because I understand how daunting and scary that can be at times. It's totally okay to feel the way your feeling right now because these things you cant control at the moment but that the main thing is that your in good care and hopefully with good staff who can look after you and make sure that you have a speedy recovery as well . I hope your doing alright . Also good luck with the second surgery I hope it goes well for you .

Invisible_me

eylah wrote: »

i had surgery this morning and im just feeling exhausted and mentally struggling bc i was told by the surgeon that im going to need to have another surgery to complete the thing thats wrong. im feeling rly sad bc i was hoping that after today that it was going to be done and sorted but he said it needs one more surgery. bc of my mum passing in the hospital i had the surgery in im feeling rly sad and mixed emotions from everything that has happened today. its been a rly long day but im able to go home in a bit but surgery took a few hours but im feeling better from the anaestic. rn i could do with my mum but i cant have her here bc shes a beautiful angel in heaven. why does life suck so much im happy how kind the surgeon and drs were but i am struggling so much bc it is all so much to take in. im tired and just want everything to end bc it is hurting my head massively.

Hiya, this sounds like a lot to be processing and dealing with as well as the physical affects from surgery. I hope you make a recovery soon.
Hearing you have to have another is disheartening and upsetting!! Im glad to hear though the surgeon was kind.
I can't even imagine the pain your going throith from your mums passing and having to be in the same hospital. That sounds aching! 😰Know we are all here for you! And please do keep talking to the staff so they can support you.

shannon_164

hey @eylah 🙂

i’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. that is so much to go through in one day, and i can only imagine how exhausting and overwhelming it must be. i know you were hoping this would be the end of it, and hearing that you need another surgery must have been really hard to take in.

on top of all that, being in the same hospital where you lost your mum must bring up so many emotions. it makes complete sense that you’re struggling right now. please remember that you’re not alone in this, we are all here for you eylah, and you don’t have to carry all of this by yourself!

i’m really glad the doctors and surgeons were kind, and i hope that you can rest, and things can begin to feel a little less overwhelming. you are so strong, even when it doesn’t feel like it.

you’ve got this eylah, i believe in you

eylah

Amy22 wrote: »

@eylah oh gosh that sounds like a lot to be going through right now especially having to have a second operation/surgery as well. Im glad that the first surgery did okay in the end because I understand how daunting and scary that can be at times. It's totally okay to feel the way your feeling right now because these things you cant control at the moment but that the main thing is that your in good care and hopefully with good staff who can look after you and make sure that you have a speedy recovery as well . I hope your doing alright . Also good luck with the second surgery I hope it goes well for you .

thankyou for your kind msg it means a lot to me . the drs at the hospital were so kind and supportive especially when i told them abt the triggers of me being put under etc but they were lovely up to the point of even getting me a taxi home so i didn’t have to walk. thankyou amy

eylah

Invisible_me wrote: »

eylah wrote: »

i had surgery this morning and im just feeling exhausted and mentally struggling bc i was told by the surgeon that im going to need to have another surgery to complete the thing thats wrong. im feeling rly sad bc i was hoping that after today that it was going to be done and sorted but he said it needs one more surgery. bc of my mum passing in the hospital i had the surgery in im feeling rly sad and mixed emotions from everything that has happened today. its been a rly long day but im able to go home in a bit but surgery took a few hours but im feeling better from the anaestic. rn i could do with my mum but i cant have her here bc shes a beautiful angel in heaven. why does life suck so much im happy how kind the surgeon and drs were but i am struggling so much bc it is all so much to take in. im tired and just want everything to end bc it is hurting my head massively.

Hiya, this sounds like a lot to be processing and dealing with as well as the physical affects from surgery. I hope you make a recovery soon.
Hearing you have to have another is disheartening and upsetting!! Im glad to hear though the surgeon was kind.
I can't even imagine the pain your going throith from your mums passing and having to be in the same hospital. That sounds aching! 😰Know we are all here for you! And please do keep talking to the staff so they can support you.

thankyou so much it means a lot to me that you all replied. i just hope mums ok up there bc shes not alone as she has my nan and grandad up there but just wish she was still here on earth. i do miss her. again thankyou for replying to me and being so supportive.

eylah

shannon_164 wrote: »

hey @eylah 🙂

i’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. that is so much to go through in one day, and i can only imagine how exhausting and overwhelming it must be. i know you were hoping this would be the end of it, and hearing that you need another surgery must have been really hard to take in.

on top of all that, being in the same hospital where you lost your mum must bring up so many emotions. it makes complete sense that you’re struggling right now. please remember that you’re not alone in this, we are all here for you eylah, and you don’t have to carry all of this by yourself!

i’m really glad the doctors and surgeons were kind, and i hope that you can rest, and things can begin to feel a little less overwhelming. you are so strong, even when it doesn’t feel like it.

you’ve got this eylah, i believe in you

thankyou so much i got spammed blocked so couldnt reply but thankyou shannon it means a lot to me

TheNightmare

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. Surgery is already tough, and hearing you need another one must feel so overwhelming. It’s completely okay to feel sad and exhausted, especially with all the emotions tied to the hospital. Just know you’re not alone your mum would be so proud of you for getting through today. Try to rest and take it one step at a time. You don’t have to carry this all on your own. We always here for you. I'm glad they were so good with you and call you a taxi. You're so strong Eylah and we're so proud of you for everything.