unexpected things

struggling0_0

i feel rlly low atm. i just feel so mentally and physically drained. i finished work after a bad shift and then stopped off for petrol, but as i went into the petrol station i noticed this girl looked at LOT like the safeguarding officer from college when i first started in 2020 then we were in the same aisle, it was in fact her. we didn’t speak, she probably doesn’t even remember me tbh but now im sat in my car crying because i feel sad about it. i really miss her:( she was the first person i properly opened up to. the first person that made sure i was safe. the first person that took me seriously. the first person that always made time to listen to me. without her, idk if i’d be here right now. it’s just caught me really off guard i guess?

eylah

sending you so many hugs if ok idk what to say but pls know i hear you and if you ever need someone to talk to you can always msg me your not alone

Azziman

Hey @struggling0_0, I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling. It sounds like this encounter was unexpected and this girl meant a lot to you. Especially after a difficult day of work, I can hear how this took a lot out of you. We're glad that you are here, with us. You deserve to be taken seriously and heard, because you matter

Invisible_me

I'm just dropping by to say I know exactly how you feel. I hear how much you are missing them. Honestly this was me, when I was in sixth form and we had our year 11 award ceremony my head of yr came bavk on that day to hand out yhe rewards (she left once we left yr 11) ans honestly after I saw her I cried so much, literally loads! Got to the point where staff were saying stop crying now that's enough. But I honestly missed her and felt like I'd reached a point o needed her back again.
Similar when I'm in a situation at volunteer and all I want to do is speak to my previous supervisor not my current supervisor.
It's hard! I have no idea how you cope with this attachment felinsg but I guess I understand and in a way prib quote natural. With time you'll just find a way to move around it- painful I know!

leyla26

@struggling0_0 Hi there!

It's completely understandable to feel how you do, and your reaction hasn't been silly at all!! There are lots of people in life where they can have a huge impact on you but they can only be temporary in our lives for different reasons, and losing those people's relationship and connection can feel super isolating and upsetting Knowing the reasons why you might not be able to see or speak anymore doesn't make the feelings of missing her any less raw. You also mentioned it was out of nowhere, so the unexpectedness of it definitely adds to that feeling of shock because you weren't prepared for those memories and feelings to come back, which makes complete sense.

You also mentioned that you had had a bad day of work, would you like to explore that a bit more with us here? Completely fine if not, but the space is here for you if you want to get any of that off your chest too