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Siena
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I will be leaving the boards and group chats by the end of this month February. I am now 26 and so i feel this place isn’t as suitable as used to me. (Totally not because the mix are kicking me out loll).
I will stop posting by the 28th Feb
I remember joining 8 years ago & thinking about becoming 26 & thinking I either won’t make it to that age or I will be doing better that I wouldn’t be using this site by that point or need support for my mental health. And it’s so painful to say (literally crying my eyes out writing this) that life doesn’t go how you want it to. i have a very vivid memory of being in my sisters old flat & thinking very deeply how I couldn’t use childline anymore cause of my age & was thinking oh yeah I’ve got 8 years for this & there’s no chance I’ll be alive and if I do make it - it’s because I won’t be struggling so much to seek this support so there’s no worry there. But here I am & while I’m not dead - I am still in a lottt of emotional pain that I still fear there is no way out. I am still in the same part time retail job as I was when I started using this site and that’s also painful as I feel I haven’t gotten very far with my life. But having said that I have just recently passed my driving test and got my first car today so maybe that will encourage new job opportunities for me to think about. I also try to remember the amount of stuff I have gone through before joining and while joining- I don’t think is for the weak so maybe I should trust my capabilities more.
So many people come and go here and a lot of the users I got close to have now left cause of the age thing too so I guess it makes it a lot easier for me to move on & recently especially since I turned 25. I try not to get too involved with other users or mods cause I know I will not be able to use for long so I am sorry if I’ve come across as it’s all about me loll & a boring empty shell with no personality.
It’s also made me have more empathy cause people open up to things you may not open up to anyone about in fear of judgement but the anonymously helped & it would make you realise about people’s behaviours & why they may act that way and just think about the wide range of things anyone may struggle with.
I don’t really know what my future holds in terms of deleting my self as the older I get the less hope of feeling better is - but then there is that the older I get the stronger I get with coming out of v dark depressive episodes and surviving it.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and I do truely wish the best for everyone in the future
I will stop posting by the 28th Feb
I remember joining 8 years ago & thinking about becoming 26 & thinking I either won’t make it to that age or I will be doing better that I wouldn’t be using this site by that point or need support for my mental health. And it’s so painful to say (literally crying my eyes out writing this) that life doesn’t go how you want it to. i have a very vivid memory of being in my sisters old flat & thinking very deeply how I couldn’t use childline anymore cause of my age & was thinking oh yeah I’ve got 8 years for this & there’s no chance I’ll be alive and if I do make it - it’s because I won’t be struggling so much to seek this support so there’s no worry there. But here I am & while I’m not dead - I am still in a lottt of emotional pain that I still fear there is no way out. I am still in the same part time retail job as I was when I started using this site and that’s also painful as I feel I haven’t gotten very far with my life. But having said that I have just recently passed my driving test and got my first car today so maybe that will encourage new job opportunities for me to think about. I also try to remember the amount of stuff I have gone through before joining and while joining- I don’t think is for the weak so maybe I should trust my capabilities more.
So many people come and go here and a lot of the users I got close to have now left cause of the age thing too so I guess it makes it a lot easier for me to move on & recently especially since I turned 25. I try not to get too involved with other users or mods cause I know I will not be able to use for long so I am sorry if I’ve come across as it’s all about me loll & a boring empty shell with no personality.
It’s also made me have more empathy cause people open up to things you may not open up to anyone about in fear of judgement but the anonymously helped & it would make you realise about people’s behaviours & why they may act that way and just think about the wide range of things anyone may struggle with.
I don’t really know what my future holds in terms of deleting my self as the older I get the less hope of feeling better is - but then there is that the older I get the stronger I get with coming out of v dark depressive episodes and surviving it.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and I do truely wish the best for everyone in the future
“And when they look at you, they won't see everything you've been through. They won't see the **** that turned to scars that began to fade with time. They won't see the heartbreaking things that shook up and changed your entire world. They won't know how many tears you cried or even what it was you were crying about. They won't see how strong you had to be because you had no other choice. What they will see though is how compassionate you are because you experienced pain. What they will see is how kind you are because you experienced how cruel the world is. What they will see is how good you are because you've seen how bad things or people can be. The difference between you and your experiences are who you choose to be, despite everything that could have turned you cold and unkind.You are the good the world needs and the best of us.” ~ Kirsten Corley
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i just want to say that i’m really proud of you for making it this far, for sharing so openly, and for acknowledging both the struggles and the strength that have carried you through.
even though things haven’t turned out how you once hoped, the fact that you’re still here, still pushing forward, still finding moments of resilience, that means something.
it’s okay to grieve what you expected life to be by now, but i also hope you give yourself credit for everything you’ve survived. passing your driving test, getting your first car, those aren’t small things, and they show that even when it doesn’t feel like it, you are moving forward. and maybe, just maybe, there are more steps ahead that will surprise you in ways you can’t see right now.
i hope leaving these spaces makes room for something new - whether that’s healing, growth, or just a little more peace, but no matter what, you’re not just a “boring empty shell.” you’re someone who has impacted others, who has shared and connected, who has mattered, and you still do.
you’re going to be missed on here, but i’m wishing you the best in life and i hope that you find what you need in your next chapter - i’m proud of you🩷
You’ve also learned a lot from this community, and that will stay with you. No matter what happens next, you’re stronger than you realize. Even though things havent gone the way you wanted yet they can still go the way you want in the future plus 26 is still young, might be the age out of here but in real life it's still really young in my opinion. Wishing you the best for the future.
I agree with everyone else here, your definitely not a boring person at all, in fact I found our chats super interesting and I think you are a lovely person. I know sometimes moving on can be super hard but it can also open up lots of opportunities in our future
Sending hugs, and good luck for the future
Amy22
P.s have a free virtual cookie on me
There has been so many achievements big and small that you’ve shared with me both personally and with us all here that I’m super proud of and I hope you can hold onto those going into the future. Please don’t be a stranger- you know where I always am 🌟
Take care you absolutely wonderful human x
Always appreciated your brutal honesty and how you voiced your opinions shamelessly . I can’t recall a single time I’ve ever disagreed with you either.
Stay strong Shaunie. You’ve a personality which will take you far
The mix will feel weird without you
Best of luck ✨
Remember you’re so important and you can get through whatever life throws at you - you’ve more than proven that already.
Thank you so much for everything.
I really hope things get much better for you soon
Sending hugs for whenever you need them
Take care of yourself