having a low moment

eylah

woke up feeling so low i hate it so much. i have so much i want to get of my chest but its just so hard bc i just want to cry bc that way i release everything but i cant cry. i am missing my mum so much i just need her back idk why life is so cruel it rly is. im trying my best to keep going every day but its getting so exhausting to even sleep at night. i feel lost i feel like i have nothing to continue for. i just want to be happy but all i seem to be is rly low and i hate it. im safe dw just offloading. just give up. *safe*

shannon_164

you really don’t deserve any of this @eylah but you’re so so strong and will get through this, no matter what life throws at you, you always keep going and still try and help everyone else too - you’re such an amazing person, you’ve got this, i believe in you🩷

Sian321

Hi @eylah , ah yesterday sounds so painful I'm really glad that you're getting things off your chest here, because it can be so hard when you've got all this emotion building inside but it doesn't feel possible to cry. That can be overwhelming.

You miss your mum so terribly right now, and just wish to have her back, I hear you. Grief can be gut-wrenching sometimes. And it's valid to feel mad at just how cruel life can be. It is so non-sensicle how we lose the people we love. And so deeply unfair. I hope you can allow yourself to feel whatever's coming up for you - anger, rage, love for her. Because every part of your grief is valid and important.

I wonder where you are able to talk about your mum with others? Is that possible with your current nurses and support? How does it feel to talk about her?

Sending hugs Eylah and we're all here for you. We've got you back

eylah

shannon_164 wrote: »

you really don’t deserve any of this @eylah but you’re so so strong and will get through this, no matter what life throws at you, you always keep going and still try and help everyone else too - you’re such an amazing person, you’ve got this, i believe in you🩷

i have no choice but to keep going but thankyou for the kind words

Sian321 wrote: »

Hi @eylah , ah yesterday sounds so painful I'm really glad that you're getting things off your chest here, because it can be so hard when you've got all this emotion building inside but it doesn't feel possible to cry. That can be overwhelming.

You miss your mum so terribly right now, and just wish to have her back, I hear you. Grief can be gut-wrenching sometimes. And it's valid to feel mad at just how cruel life can be. It is so non-sensicle how we lose the people we love. And so deeply unfair. I hope you can allow yourself to feel whatever's coming up for you - anger, rage, love for her. Because every part of your grief is valid and important.

I wonder where you are able to talk about your mum with others? Is that possible with your current nurses and support? How does it feel to talk about her?

Sending hugs Eylah and we're all here for you. We've got you back

sounds rly daft but gonna put this in a spoiler and add a tw grief ashes

mum was next to my bed at home and i rly miss not hugging her ashes at night. that makes me better hugging her but not having that is rly whats affecting me . but i rly appreciate your support sian

i have noone to talk to mum with tbh i think if i had someone i would talk to them but i don’t so it is hard for me to open up to ppl bc idk im just sad bc yes she passed in september im still kicking myself bc what ifs keep popping up. what if i helped her more what if i put her first instead of myself etc. so many what ifs. thankyou