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(TW suicide) Knowing that I’ll always considered ugly without makeup makes me want to reattempt
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Disclaimer: I am safe. I am capable of keeping myself safe.
One way I know people are lying when they say I’m not ugly, is when they recommend makeup. I know it’s a controversial opinion, but I think it’s bullshit when people say that makeup is meant to “enhance your natural features”. It’s obviously designed to hide your natural flaws, such as acne, eye bags, short eyelashes, thin eyebrows etc.
I would describe makeup as the equivalent of covering a nail fungus with a pretty bright nail polish. It doesn’t mean you no longer have a fungus, you’ve just hidden it. Hence, wearing makeup doesn’t make you attractive; it just hides the fact that you’re ugly.
And when people say I should wear makeup, I know they think in ugly. Despite engaging in my skincare routine and trying to get rid of my flaws (acne, short lashes, eyebags, wrinkles, thin eyebrows), I’m still considered ugly until I hide who I truly am with makeup.
When people say I should wear makeup more often (even if it’s intended as a compliment on my makeup skills) it breaks my heart. And it breaks my heart even more knowing that women will never be accepted in their natural state. This is just how the world is. Women are just born into a world where they have to hide who they are in order to have worth in life. I get the basics of taking care of yourself, in regards to grooming and taking care of your hygiene. But having short lashes or thin lips isn’t unhygienic.
“Makeup is all about putting in effort”
It’s my fucking face. I would prefer if you just called me ugly instead of hiding through this bullshit that makeup is the equivalent of dressing nicely.
And the fact that nothing about it can be changed makes me want to reattempt. Why would I want to live in a world where I have to hide who I am in order to be accepted. I would much rather be dead now than live that reality.
And as a way to prevent myself from killing my self, I’m trying to remind myself that killing myself will make my family miserable if I kill myself.
For context, I attempted to end my life in my workplace locker room a long time ago and failed. But I’m feeling so low and want to reattempt.
For context, I attempted to end my life in my workplace locker room a long time ago and failed. But I’m feeling so low and want to reattempt.
One way I know people are lying when they say I’m not ugly, is when they recommend makeup. I know it’s a controversial opinion, but I think it’s bullshit when people say that makeup is meant to “enhance your natural features”. It’s obviously designed to hide your natural flaws, such as acne, eye bags, short eyelashes, thin eyebrows etc.
I would describe makeup as the equivalent of covering a nail fungus with a pretty bright nail polish. It doesn’t mean you no longer have a fungus, you’ve just hidden it. Hence, wearing makeup doesn’t make you attractive; it just hides the fact that you’re ugly.
And when people say I should wear makeup, I know they think in ugly. Despite engaging in my skincare routine and trying to get rid of my flaws (acne, short lashes, eyebags, wrinkles, thin eyebrows), I’m still considered ugly until I hide who I truly am with makeup.
When people say I should wear makeup more often (even if it’s intended as a compliment on my makeup skills) it breaks my heart. And it breaks my heart even more knowing that women will never be accepted in their natural state. This is just how the world is. Women are just born into a world where they have to hide who they are in order to have worth in life. I get the basics of taking care of yourself, in regards to grooming and taking care of your hygiene. But having short lashes or thin lips isn’t unhygienic.
“Makeup is all about putting in effort”
It’s my fucking face. I would prefer if you just called me ugly instead of hiding through this bullshit that makeup is the equivalent of dressing nicely.
And the fact that nothing about it can be changed makes me want to reattempt. Why would I want to live in a world where I have to hide who I am in order to be accepted. I would much rather be dead now than live that reality.
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