Bad and scary day / TW: Self Harm

Rose113

This morning me went to see Emma and I showed her self harm and she said cos it so bad she call mum which me got upset over that and scared for reaction but it was okay. She told mum about self harm and something else that me no can say on here and I fought mum would be angry. She was not.

told Emma that I never speak to her again but she message me after call with mum and made it better. Kooth worker is going call Emma on Wednesday and so they can work together to support me but I scared that Kooth worker is gonna tell her something that happened that I lied a teeny bit out of cos I did not want kooth worker to worry in the moment…

Had see Janis for first aid and she bandaged me up so that was good. I skipped media cos panic attack and cos I cried in toilets…apparently I prevented another student from going class…I kept telling her go in so not get in trouble but me is always to blame teacher said that others got it worse…

After college we went round to aunt and uncles and I ended up telling aunt and she told me I needed help and hugged me lots and said I can’t continue to hurt self anymore ☹️ then mum did emotional blackmail…that is related to something I can’t go into that Emma told mum bout

After dinner I falled asleep in the chair so uncle moved me to sofa and wrapped me in blanket and then mum had wake me up but she felt bad for cos I was sleeping well after long time.

When we returned home me gave mum the objects and I told her I’m glad Emma told cos I would of carried on till I did permanent damage when in fact I want to get better but just scared too

Mum trying get 24th off to come doctor’s appointment with me to make sure they give me proper help. She said I need something to help me sleep which me agrees as I’ve not slept okay since before December I exhausted and hurting emotionally and physically but part of me feel happy being cared for…

Now me sleepy so night night

AnonymousToe

Rose113 wrote: »

apparently I prevented another student from going class…I kept telling her go in so not get in trouble but me is always to blame teacher said that others got it worse…

No way, that sounds like a terrible teacher!! None of that was your fault and your struggles are still valid. I’m glad you’ve told people and that you’re being taken care of.

Rose113

@AnonymousToe yeah and she put on etrackr that too then spoke to me in her room cos got upset and she said just got to carry on cos other people got it worse…