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I need to vent
JMMV2005
Posts: 113 The Mix Convert
I know I made a post a little while ago at Christmas with really positive stuff in it but I’ve started to feel a bit crap about things an it’d help if I write it down here, I’m going to keep my positive attitude going I just need to get some stuff out my system…
I’m just so sick of where I am at the moment, I have no job or friends, everyday my dad goes out to work all day and my mum works 3 or 6 hours a day so I’m just at home on my own all day, I’m so lonely, I just want to be around people and have some company, I’d especially like to have some friends my age, I’d like a girlfriend to but there’s literally no opportunities for that at the moment plus I have never had a relationship anyway so I lack experience which makes things worse, and theres no opportunities for me to just make friends either, all I’m doing is sitting around waiting for opportunities and trying random opportunities that pop up hoping they’ll actually lead somewhere
And I’m getting pissed off about jobs to, I want to be doing an apprenticeship rather than wasting my time at home, but every time I apply for one and get an interview or something I don’t hear anything back, then I have to chase it up, then they say “Oh sorry we’ve hired someone with more experience”, this happened to me yesterday and I’m actually so pissed off about it, I have had work in the summer for the last 2 years at a food warehouse, but I’m never gonna get anywhere in life doing that and I only get work in the summer because in winter theres not anything to do
I’m getting really impatient for things to change and I feel like I’m going stir crazy and running out of mental energy to get through this, and lately I’ve been so determined and ready for things to change it’s sort of made things worse, this has been going on for so long, obviously in lockdown I was stuck at home, then school ended and my school friends decided to piss off and leave me on my own, then I went through college alone not even going there full time so I had plenty of time at home alone, then that ended and since then I’ve just been sitting at home working on and off at the warehouse, like I said I can’t cope with this much longer, I’m 19 I need to be out there doing stuff and have friends and relationships, but instead I’m trapped at home, I feel like an energetic puppy ready to go out and run about stuck in a cage
I am taking positive action, I’m getting myself outside for a coffee multiple times a week, I got a fitness class I’m gonna try tomorrow, and I have an anxiety course with others my age also on the course, I’m also doing an online carpentry course, and I’ve completed the online bit and I have to go to Cardiff at some point for the practical bit, and apparently after you finish the course they’ll help you find work, plus I’m trying to do fun things in the day at home such as drawing in my sketchbook and doing one sketch a day, so I do have a lot of hope and positive things, it’s just I’m getting sick of being at home alone and things moving really slowly, and I just feel really lonely right now and I feel pissed off about what happened with the apprenticeship yesterday
Thank you, I just needed to get this out there somewhere, I already feel better now this is written down and I can now switch into a better mindset
I’m just so sick of where I am at the moment, I have no job or friends, everyday my dad goes out to work all day and my mum works 3 or 6 hours a day so I’m just at home on my own all day, I’m so lonely, I just want to be around people and have some company, I’d especially like to have some friends my age, I’d like a girlfriend to but there’s literally no opportunities for that at the moment plus I have never had a relationship anyway so I lack experience which makes things worse, and theres no opportunities for me to just make friends either, all I’m doing is sitting around waiting for opportunities and trying random opportunities that pop up hoping they’ll actually lead somewhere
And I’m getting pissed off about jobs to, I want to be doing an apprenticeship rather than wasting my time at home, but every time I apply for one and get an interview or something I don’t hear anything back, then I have to chase it up, then they say “Oh sorry we’ve hired someone with more experience”, this happened to me yesterday and I’m actually so pissed off about it, I have had work in the summer for the last 2 years at a food warehouse, but I’m never gonna get anywhere in life doing that and I only get work in the summer because in winter theres not anything to do
I’m getting really impatient for things to change and I feel like I’m going stir crazy and running out of mental energy to get through this, and lately I’ve been so determined and ready for things to change it’s sort of made things worse, this has been going on for so long, obviously in lockdown I was stuck at home, then school ended and my school friends decided to piss off and leave me on my own, then I went through college alone not even going there full time so I had plenty of time at home alone, then that ended and since then I’ve just been sitting at home working on and off at the warehouse, like I said I can’t cope with this much longer, I’m 19 I need to be out there doing stuff and have friends and relationships, but instead I’m trapped at home, I feel like an energetic puppy ready to go out and run about stuck in a cage
I am taking positive action, I’m getting myself outside for a coffee multiple times a week, I got a fitness class I’m gonna try tomorrow, and I have an anxiety course with others my age also on the course, I’m also doing an online carpentry course, and I’ve completed the online bit and I have to go to Cardiff at some point for the practical bit, and apparently after you finish the course they’ll help you find work, plus I’m trying to do fun things in the day at home such as drawing in my sketchbook and doing one sketch a day, so I do have a lot of hope and positive things, it’s just I’m getting sick of being at home alone and things moving really slowly, and I just feel really lonely right now and I feel pissed off about what happened with the apprenticeship yesterday
Thank you, I just needed to get this out there somewhere, I already feel better now this is written down and I can now switch into a better mindset
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I know how agitating it can feel when you're waiting to hear back from a job (especially if they told you they'd reply by a certain date and haven't!). I'm also right here with you in feeling frustrated when they say they've hired someone with more experience. Like how are you supposed to get the experience if nobody is offering you it??
The positive actions you're taking sound really inspiring btw. Those courses will look great on your CV if you want to put them on. From my experience courses can really help in showing you have an understanding and sometimes practical application, especially when jobs aren't getting back to you and offering you experience.
Sending you positive thoughts - 2025 will be your year
Thank you
It’s sort of a vicious circle, you need experience to get a job but to get experience you need a job, courses count as experience though so it definitely should help and I’ll be sure to put it on my CV