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TW// self harm

For the record I’m safe
So tonight had a rough night and basically relapsed a lot and I know probably gonna ask why I didn’t talk to a helpline but I didn’t talk to one because there’s nothing to say to them, I hurt myself because I felt the need to punish myself and because I wanted to watch myself suffer
I have to see Emma tomorrow which I was scared about the last batch but now I’m scared about tonight’s, I know she will most likely ask fist aid to come and probably bandage me up but I feel like I’m just gonna break down crying to her…
If I see her tomorrow in the corridor or something I’m kinda hoping she doesn’t say anything to escape the embarrassment of having to tell her what I’ve done
So tonight had a rough night and basically relapsed a lot and I know probably gonna ask why I didn’t talk to a helpline but I didn’t talk to one because there’s nothing to say to them, I hurt myself because I felt the need to punish myself and because I wanted to watch myself suffer
I have to see Emma tomorrow which I was scared about the last batch but now I’m scared about tonight’s, I know she will most likely ask fist aid to come and probably bandage me up but I feel like I’m just gonna break down crying to her…
If I see her tomorrow in the corridor or something I’m kinda hoping she doesn’t say anything to escape the embarrassment of having to tell her what I’ve done

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