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struggling0_0
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this is probably super silly, i know, but basically i no longer see my dad, i havent for around 10 years now. when i did see him, it was for like 20 ish mins at mcdonaldâs while he sat and talked to my mum about work stuff with 0 interest in me. every sunday morning when we were seeing him, my sister and i would have been up, had a shower, hair washed and dried and then we left. since we stopped seeing him, i was old enough to be able to get a shower myself, wash my own hair and dry it too so i got to decide when i got a shower mostly too, i never would have got a shower on a sunday morning, it would have always been a sunday night instead (as well as throughout the week dw lol) but today i ended up getting a shower this morning, it feels weird? itâs a sunday morning, outta bed, shower, hair washed and dried but i donât see my dad anymore (his choice btw) - it kinda hurts a bit?
i seen a thing on tiktok this morning that said âas a person i hate him but as his daughter i could neverâ - iâve been thinking about that non stop as itâs how i feel too, knowing about things heâs done and lies heâs told but heâs still my dad and there are some memories i have of him doing normal things that a dad with do with his daughter like playing in the park or whatever.
sorry this is super silly:(
i seen a thing on tiktok this morning that said âas a person i hate him but as his daughter i could neverâ - iâve been thinking about that non stop as itâs how i feel too, knowing about things heâs done and lies heâs told but heâs still my dad and there are some memories i have of him doing normal things that a dad with do with his daughter like playing in the park or whatever.
sorry this is super silly:(
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Whilst you may not have seen him this morning, doing those things for yourself is still lovely, having a shower, all clean and tidy, but I can certainly understand that hurt a bit.
I hope youâre okay and have a lovely rest of your Sunday and into a fresh week. âșïž
Sometimes with change, we can realise the impacts not in the big obvious actions, but in the small parts of daily routines that feel a little off, like with the shower you describe here. Part of coming to terms with this is accepting that you'll likely have differing emotions based on what memories you recall about your dad, and that's okay. We're here to listen to you and support you as you navigate this change