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I hate my life
PetiteQuark
Posts: 82 Budding Regular
Seriously. No control whatsoever. I hate it.
The worst part everything I think, feel and say doesn't matter people don't care.
And omg im 17, turning 18 in spring ugh
Literally I have far less control over my life than others my age, or even younger than me. And most of the people in my life dont even want me to be independent whatsoever they hate that idea
Seriously my problems what I feel what I think isnt considered at all.
The worst part everything I think, feel and say doesn't matter people don't care.
And omg im 17, turning 18 in spring ugh
Literally I have far less control over my life than others my age, or even younger than me. And most of the people in my life dont even want me to be independent whatsoever they hate that idea
Seriously my problems what I feel what I think isnt considered at all.
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Honestly thank you so much but im going to talk to this with my gp bc i was put onto some online therapy which i
Have no idea how to use and wasnt rlly helping. Im not even sure if it would be right to continue posting stuff like this on themix i feel like im just being negative
The only thing that keeps me going is that, according to islam this life isnt important and its the afterlife that is and in heaven you can have anything you want as long as it isn't anything bad. But then it doesnt help me when people tell me that im a horrible person who will rot in hell.
I'm so sorry to hear that people have been telling you you're a horrible person, and saying incredibly harsh things such as 'rot in hell'. No one has a right to talk to you that way. Would you feel comfortable telling us a little bit more about who is saying these things, and how you've been coping so far?
We're here for you!
sry to hear this hru now? you arent a horrible person you are going through a tough time rn but that doesn’t mean your a bad person bc your not! hugs 🤗
Honestly ngl i just feel alot more pessimistic than usual. Thank you for your kindness I really dont deserve it, I actually am a terrible person.
i hear you like @Sian321 said do you feel safe atm? you do deserve kindness you rly do bc you are going through a tough point atm and you are deserving of help through that. from my perspective you arent a bad person youve done nothing to make you a bad person i hope your feeling little better? im here for you 🫂
Im in a safe place but I truly am a bad person I dont have a close relationship with my dad and ive also done other stuff. I'm NOT
Would it feel helpful to share with us a bit more about when life first began to feel disenchanted for you? I wonder if there was a specific moment where life began to feel more bleak, or maybe it's been a gradual feeling you've been dealing with a long time?
Thanks so much for trusting us with this, @PetiteQuark , and please do take your time. We're here and want to listen
Sorry im not upset its just everyone keeps on saying im bad and that im always wrong.
Honestly it all happened when i was in year 11 when life started to *really* feel like it's just not worth it...
Thank you for understanding me.
Its just exhausting. No control, i do understand i have well, very little things within my control but its not enough.
I try to keep myself busy with my work but still i feel upset.
What you've described sounds so overwhelming to be experiencing. You've mentioned having certain things within your control. Would you like to share what they are ? I can hear that you've been keeping yourself busy with your work, that's pretty positive. I hope that as time goes on you'll find more ways to take control within your own life. Even if it's as small as deciding what to eat for dinner, whether or not to go for a walk, watch a film, or get some exercise in. It can start with little things and eventually become bigger with time. You're doing really well to have already started this process and to keep reaching out to talk about how you feel. Your feelings are welcome here, all of them