I'm really not okay

Past User

The user and all related content has been deleted.

shannon_164

chloe, i don’t really know what to say and im so sorry about that but your feelings are valid🩷

i know from listening to what you’ve shared while i’ve been on here and in chats in the past few months that you’ve been through a lot and don’t deserve any of it.

i promise you are not at all a shitty person, i know you might feel that way about yourself but you’re honestly not!! you’re such a special person that makes the world a better place - i just wish that life was better for you and that you didn’t have to experience anything you’ve been through.

i’m so proud of you for continuing on everyday, even though it is SO difficult for you right now, and i think you should be really proud of yourself too!!

always here for you, you’ve got this chloe🫶🏻

Gemma

Hey @Chloe234 - you've done so well to share all of this with us. It sounds like you’re carrying a tremendous amount right now, and it makes sense that you’d feel overwhelmed and exhausted. It’s really hard to keep going when it feels like you’re putting on a mask for everyone else and can’t even get the rest you need. The pressure to act like everything’s okay when inside, you’re feeling completely different, like you’re falling apart, can make it feel even lonelier. I’m so sorry you’re going through this.

I hear you when you say you feel like you’re not allowed to struggle, like you have to protect your family from seeing what you’re dealing with. That’s a lot to handle on your own, and it’s understandable that it feels unfair - especially knowing how much you’ve been through. You mentioned wishing that certain things hadn’t happened in the past, and that’s totally valid. Our past can weigh heavily on us, and it’s okay to acknowledge that pain.

The things you love, like your college course, also seem to be causing stress right now. It’s normal to feel pressure to keep up with everything, and it sounds like you’re frustrated because you know how capable you are, yet things feel harder than usual. Would it help to talk about what makes it feel too much sometimes? Or what you think might help you feel less stuck?

Just know that you don’t have to have it all figured out or keep hiding how you feel. This is a safe space, and we're here to listen whenever you’re ready.

Sending lots of hugs

Past User

The user and all related content has been deleted.

Past User

The user and all related content has been deleted.

amy02

Gosh @Chloe234 sending you big hugs right now I can hear how all this must be so overwhelming for you. Hopefully you've managed to get some better sleep in the past few days. You're so strong for sharing this with us and we're here for you. Is there someone at your college you are able to speak to about the workload? Hopefully they'd be able to provide time extensions or something for students who are struggling? You are absolutely not a burden and deserve to be supported and heard x

Past User

The user and all related content has been deleted.

ebyrne556

Hey @Chloe234 i’m really glad that you got some sleep last night (yay for small wins haha) but I’m hearing that you’re still really tired. Is there a way that you’re able to get some extra rest today even just time to get away from the coursework and watch some Disney?

I can understand why you don’t really want to mention it to your tutor and I guess some tutors are more supportive than others. maybe if you don’t want to do it verbally you could do it like in an email or is there another member of staff that maybe you might feel more comfortable going to? Even support staff in the college. At the end of the day they should bethere to help you to get the most out of your course

Thinking of you keep going @Chloe234