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what if things were different?
Rose113
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if you know about my past then great this will make alot of sense to you but if you dont then heres some key points to my past without doing the full story because thatll take forever but yeah:
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sooooo yeah, what if i hadnt been put into care, then id of been unloved by my own blood rather than someone that chose me,if i hadnt of been adopted then would i of been bullied? would i of had my attempts work? i kinda feel like my life would of been better if i never had been adopted..maybe id still been living with my brothers. maybe if things of been different then you guys would of never had to meet me or know me. everyones lives would of been better without me in
sorry
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- i was born into an abusive, neglectful and a domestic violence household
- my birth parents were alcoholics and never looked after us
- nearly didnt live past 2 years old because of my dad
- was put into care on my 3rd birthday where the foster lady was abusive and gave me a long lasting fear of water and fear of people touching my hair
- got adopted at 4 to an absent parent that yells at me when she is around
- started sh when i was 9
- got sa'd when i was in year 7
- got bullied from year 2 - year 11 and then was beaten up at start of year 11 for looking at someone
- attempted too take my life multiple times from the middle of year 10 - the end
- lost over 10 friends too suicide across the years
- started age regressing in year 9 but then it got worse through the years too the point that it ruines my life because my speech changes or i loose my memory
- spent 3 years being called a disapointment by my english teacher in secondery and had to constantly deal with my teacher scribbling out my work with a black marker cos it was never good enough
- found out my dad had past away 2 years later through facebook
- found out theres 3 abuse articles online about the night i went into care
- then found out last week i have kidney damage
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sooooo yeah, what if i hadnt been put into care, then id of been unloved by my own blood rather than someone that chose me,if i hadnt of been adopted then would i of been bullied? would i of had my attempts work? i kinda feel like my life would of been better if i never had been adopted..maybe id still been living with my brothers. maybe if things of been different then you guys would of never had to meet me or know me. everyones lives would of been better without me in
sorry
Want to hurt me… go ahead
Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
Want to talk crap about me…go on then
Want to make me cry…feel free
Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
Want to talk crap about me…go on then
Want to make me cry…feel free
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Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
Want to talk crap about me…go on then
Want to make me cry…feel free
Amy22
Have these thoughts been recent or have they occurred before? If they are causing you a lot of distress it may be a good option to talk to someone about these, so they can unpack them with you and remove the negative assumption 'what ifs' and replace them with more positively reframed statements. It's important to not try and cover up your past and what has happened to you, after all, it has made you who you are today and after all the awful things people have put you through, you are still here and fighting. And that's a beautiful thing to see how far you have come. You are amazing and I admire your resilience whole-heartedly. I hope for the future that you can come to terms with what has happened and find peace for yourself, and that will take time. Remember to be patient with yourself and to be kind.
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