What’s the fucking point anymore

Rose113

Not aimed on here or anything

What’s the actual fucking point, I can’t fucking fix everyone as much as I fucking try to, I put everyone first, even when I’m over here fucking suicidal myself. I’m not a stupid professional, I have my own crap to deal with but clearly I’m not human. Why can’t people just piss off if they want to be nasty, give me a break!!

I’m tired and I’ve tried endlessly and so so sorry that the one night I’m suicidal and having a hopeless time with helplines that I’m not in the best mindset. People don’t have to call me a fucking selfish cunt for it!!

Don’t like me…block me. Find me annoying and clingy…block me. Wish you never met me…forget you ever did. I don’t force anyone to be in my life and I never will, people can leave if they want, I don’t fucking care anymore.

I can’t be strong any longer, I can’t pretend that everything is okay anymore, I have nothing left in me to smile and fake how I feel. I can’t do it!

Just let me curl up in a ball and shut everyone out till I feel better or kick me out your life. Idc. I’m done, I’m mentally done, I’m physically done. I’ve bottled it all up for too long.

Just why can’t people give me a break 😭😭😭😭😭

Lucy_21

Love you have done enough you are amazing for trying to help but like you said you are not a professional and are dealing with your own stuff and that is completely fine. It is completely OK to not be OK. It is not your job to help everyone and I’m proud of you for trying. You don’t have to hide anything from me or hold anything in with me. If you don’t want to talk let me know. If you do want to talk let me know. If you want to call and just sit in silence again let me know. Be in your ball, tell me you need to be alone I got you. You don’t have to hide anything from me, you can let everything out with me but don’t bottle anything up love ❤️❤️

Aoife

I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through right now @Rose113 . It sounds incredibly tough, and I can tell how much you're carrying on your own. No one has the right to make you feel selfish for putting your own mental health first and it’s always okay to ask for help when you need it.

It sounds like someone has really hurt you. If you feel comfortable, would you like to share more about how you're feeling with us?

You mentioned that you can't keep being strong or pretending everything is okay, and I just want to remind you that it's never selfish to look after your own mental health and put yourself first. You don’t have to put everyone above yourself—your wellbeing is so important, and you truly deserve support. You always have

How are you feeling today? Are you feeling safe right now?

If things ever start to feel overwhelming, please remember that these organisations are always here to help too:

* Local urgent mental health helpline | Open 24/7 | Find details about your local service here.
*Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
*Samaritans (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
*Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org

Keep going and remember we're all here for you

Rose113

@Aoife someone that Ive been supporting spat it back in my face.

Still feel so crap, yeah I’m safe I guess

sinead276

I hope you're feeling a little better this afternoon. i know it's hard when you give so much time and energy into helping someone for them to not show the appreciation that perhaps they should.

like Aoife said, it's more than okay to be selfish when it comes to your own mental health. if we aren't okay then we can't help others. so try and take the time to help yourself and feel a bit better - perhaps doing little self-care things just to find some relief in the midst of the situation.

and remember you are so loved by all the members here at the mix - and you are never on your own

sending hugs