its all to much

eylah

im dealing with a lot rn my mum my ex bf and my dad etc. i feel really awful its all to much for me rn. i am doing my best im doing everything i can to stay okay for mum as shes in hospital in icu. im fighting every day but its so hard. im 3 weeks sh free but every day thats getting so so hard. i feel such a let down. i feel like im ruining my family’s life but its so so hard. idk what i can do to make it better but i feel like its all climbed on top of me and im crashing down. i feel like i dont have a reason to get better. but i am trying to get better even though i dont see a future for myself. i have no ambitions or nothing. i hate myself sm. im so fed up with everything in my life. i feel like no one can see how much im trying. bc i am trying but no one can see the strength im putting into my life and to keep going for my mum. i feel so so sad and upset abt my life and myself. it actually hurts. im so useless.

sinead276

hi @eylah

i can't imagine how hard it has been for you the past couple of weeks with everything you've been having to deal with. i think you've been incredibly strong with everything you've had to go through and manage. i know it might be hard to believe right now, but from what i have gathered from the interactions i've had with you on here is that you've got incredible strength and perseverance, especially when you feel like you're managing things along and don't feel you have the support you deserve. i know i can definitely see how much you are trying and i for one don't think you are useless at all - you are a valued member of the Mix community. And i know it might not seem like it, but things will hopefully get better for you soon, and this weight you are carrying will start to feel lighter.

i just wanted to say that you're doing amazing and all of us are super proud of you and are here to support you however we can. remember there's always support here with us and you aren't alone in any of this. Remember to take care of yourself and your mind, and that you are allowed to feel however you feel.

Sending you a big hug
Sinead

eylah

thank you so much. im trying my hardest to get through every day. im doing this for me and my mum as she will need my full care when she comes home.

JJLemon18

Sending the biggest hugs and wishing the best for you and your family

eylah wrote: »

thank you so much. im trying my hardest to get through every day. im doing this for me and my mum as she will need my full care when she comes home.

Thats really wholesome, I hope your mum gets better very soon!

eylah

thank you.

AnonymousToe

You’re being so strong @eylah youre absolutely not useless! You seem like a lovely person and you’re dealing with a lot right now. Sending big hugs

eylah

just unsure abt everything. idek how to cope with it all.

just saw this when posted. thank you so much. @AnonymousToe . i appreciate you sm.

Amy22

Sending you big hugs right now that sounds like a lot to be dealing with at the moment .

eylah

Amy22 wrote: »

Sending you big hugs right now that sounds like a lot to be dealing with at the moment .

your so kind thank you .

Former Member

Proud of you @eylah Sending hugs

eylah

thank you slinky your so sweet ❤️

eylah

actually so scared bc of my ex. mum is struggling again i wish it would stop. dad is being obnoxious like usual but i wish police would listen to me.