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Sorry if I seem like I'm attention seeking
spacedog
Posts: 1,183 Wise Owl
I'm sorry if I seem like I'm attention seeking and that I constantly make the same posts but I just desperately need to tell anyone about it. The NHS is so useless, I tell them I want to die and they force me to wait upwards of 6 months for any 'help'. They class me as low risk - attempt suicide and then they still couldn't care less - I see 2 mental health professionals in hospital in which one was just doodling in a notepad and the other just tells me to get a fucking McDonald's, and I just don't understand what they want. I'm gonna be dead soon if they don't do anything but really doubt they will. They let me become so bad that I'm practically risking my life for help and on deaths door at this point but I still get pushed aside as if I'm some stupid kid who doesn't understand anything and I just get referred from place to place who just couldn't give a fuck about me. The only place I do feel people want the best for me is mental health charities but they're not able to do much. I never wanted to die but I don't have any other option, there's nothing else I can do at this point other than to suffer
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I agree, the NHS really can be awful. I've had a lot of medical issues as well as mental health issues and more times than not they've done basically nothing. But honestly it must be so shitty being classed as low risk when you feel like this and I'm so so sorry you aren't getting the proper support you need. I wish I could do more to help Just hug your teddies tight and remember that even if everything feels so incredibly hopeless right now it won't feel that way forever, you just have to keep going and getting through one day at a time. I'm proud of you!
I just wanted to acknowledge how heavy this all sounds for you. It does feel really scary when things are so painful for you and you're not getting the help you deserve. These things are never easy to share.
Please know that you are not attention-seeking by reaching out for support. Even if you are seeking attention or seeking care, there's totally nothing wrong with that. We seek attention because we need it and it's natural to want our pain to be noticed.
The staff team might drop you a PM today just to talk a bit more about how you're doing. Also a gentle reminder of these crisis support services if you need them.
Do you have any family or friends you feel able to share these feelings with and to feel some support around you?
In the meantime though, please lean on the community when you need to - we're always here. You're doing great, even when it doesn't feel like it
No apologies necessary btw, we're here for you
Sorry to hear your hallucinations got so bad the other night It must be so awful. I hope the help you get through private care will be better because you really deserve good support and not people who will push you away and dismiss the stuff you're doing through. How u doing todayy?
I think you're already aware of these signposts, but just a reminder of some organisations who you can reach out to if you do find yourself feeling unsafe: It's positive to hear that you're reaching out for support. How did the appointment with the psychiatrist go? You're doing really well.
Take care,
Harry
Well done with your music - that is such a huge achievement. Is the violin something you like to do/play?
That's great to hear ur day was amazing on Saturday!! I totally get the feeling, u must have felt so chuffed!! I play the piano and yesterday my piano teacher said she was really proud of me because this stupid piece i've been procrastinating practicing for months is finally coming together and it sounds really nice I hope ur day is going well today!