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SpaceOtter

Happy Tuesday
Ive posted alot lately sorry. Its just  i thought writing would help me process this.

I received a letter today saying the community health team won't see me and im not sure how i feel. I think im relieved.

I knew they wouldn't accept me, its not that I don't think I deserve help i just know that the threshold is quite high due to these services being high in demand.

But the whole process meant i haven't seen anyone in a while. I found it quite ironic that the whole point of referring me to cmht was to give me access to support more frequently and I ended up feeling like id been left on my own.

I don't mean that in a mean way, I understand theyre under pressure. I just felt so sad. I don't mind not seeing people so frequently as long as i know when I can see them. Im quite good at pacing myself and keeping myself occupied when I have a date. Its uncertainty i find most upsetting.

Sure maybe more help would have been nice, but I was worried id be left completely but they said ill be returned to the primary team. I just hope im still allowed to see the same person I trust them alot. I wasn't very happy about being referred to cmht but they thought it was a good idea. It was worth a try. I just hope this means i might have more certainty going forward.

Sending lots of hugs and wishing you all the best

Emma_

@SpaceOtter

It's okay to feel all these things. I think sometimes people might expect us to feel a certain way, but as you're written out, all these things are true. It is sad, but I can hear it's also relieving

It's very kind of you to think of others and the support they need, but thinking of yourself and what support you deserve too, is important.

We know how frustrating it can be to go through this whole process to end up kinda back where you were, but as you've said, hopefully this might mean you'll be able to get a date back in with your primary mh team to get some support from them soon.

Keep writing things out, that's what we're here for and the community are all here to support and listen. Be kind to yourself

kaii

Hey @SpaceOtter, thank you so much for reaching out and being brave to write down all these things

Please don't apologise for writing this all out - no matter how much you post, we're here to listen to you. Your feelings are completely valid - it's very nice that you understand that these services are high in demand, but your own feelings are just as important. I can see that you already acknowledge that you deserve support, which is very brave and strong of you. This process truly is unfortunate so I understand how draining it must be to go through all this. It's okay to feel sad and disappointed that the community health team won't see you. I really hope that you get the support you deserve when you return to the primary team. Please don't hesitate to keep posting here, we're here for you ^^

Sending hugs

Former Member

@SpaceOtter Hi there, hope you're okay... It was really brave of you to share and we're all here for you. Recognising that you deserve support is amazing and please don't let go of that... I can relate to the whole uncertainty but I hope that with the primary team you will be able to get some sort of clarity on what will happen next... sending hugs