Hurt

Does anyone care.

No one ever cares. Just so lonely

Hey Shaunie, I care. I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling lonely and that your ex isnt responding anymore. Sometimes a bit of space is good though. Sending big hugs

Thank you. I’m feeling very suicidal. I think might email PD team

I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling tonight Shaunie, please do reach out for support tonight if you’re feeling unsafe at any point, and we’re here if you want to chat more on the boards too

I just sent the email I hope they can help me. I can’t take this anymore :’(

When do you think they’ll reply, will it be tomorrow now?

I really hope they are able to help you too it sounds like you’re having a really hard time right now. Proud of you for taking that step and sending that email, well done

Omg it’s the weekend 😭😭😭

Oh nooo are they closed at weekends?

I’m guessing so. I would text crisis team but the last time I texted them at this time they got back to me in 3 hours. Like wow
I’m not in crisis crisis I just feel so fucking awful

Remember there’s services like shout too, if you just want to have someone to talk to and help you to make sure you stay safe.

Sorry you're hurting so much Shaunie

Is there anything we can do to help?

You're so strong, you'll get through this

Thank you Liam and independent

No problem, I’ll be around for a while if you want to keep chatting here too. I think @Liam is totally right - you will get through this because you’re such a strong person. Even if you don’t see it right now it’s true.

I’m really struggling with my eating disorder. I just want to eat without guilt. Feels so bad can’t take it. I’m trying soo hard but it’s horrible

That sounds really difficult. Have you got any support for the ED at the moment?

No. I don’t really want any either cause j don’t want it to be a big thing. I just hoping it goes away again.

I have a goal weight and know that’s when it’s getting bad.

I’m getting really obsessed over sugar amounts too

Do you find that you go through periods where your ED is worse than others?

I think a lot of the time these things don’t always get better on their own, you get to a point where it gets too much. Seeking support is never a bad thing

Sometimes gets better on own. But been drinking those drinks that have nutrents. But they’re expensive. Some reason it’s easier eating liquid food rather than hard. I don’t know why. It’s weird

Shaunie said:

I just sent the email I hope they can help me. I can’t take this anymore :’(

They sent the police to me

Hey Shaunie I’m really sorry you’re in so much pain right now . And really sorry to hear they sent the police. I have no advice but we’re always happy to listen if you ever need anything. you can pm me anytime of you ever need someone to talk to.

Thank you. My sisters was messaging each other after the police went. And I saw notifications come up on my sisters phone. My older sister said “have you seen her arm. It’s disgusting”. “Trust me you don’t want to, I was nearly sick”
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

That's not cool at all @Shaunie

i'm so sorry.

We're all SO proud of you here

Shaunie I’m really sorry to hear that. A lot of people don’t understand self harm and struggle to look past it to really see the person in pain. I’m really sorry they did that. We’re always here Shaunie

Oh no @Shaunie I'm sorry to hear your sister said that. It's a really awful thing to say and just shows that some people just don't understand. Sending big hugs

Can’t tell if it was a bitchy comment or a concerned one:’( but I don’t want my arm to be “disgusting”
but thank yous

I think my sister was crying but I couldn’t tell properly as she left the room:/
omg I feel so bad

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oh no! @Shaunie is she crying about you seeing her phone? or a separate thing? hope she’s okay and hope you’re okay too! you going to get some rest tonight?x

I think because of the police coming.

Yeah will get some rest. The mental health team are supposed to be ringing me tomorrow