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ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m deadEngland 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
Really bad dangerous thoughts
 
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  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie I'm here if you want to talk ❤️
    Alis propriis volat 
    Shaunie
  • LaineLaine Animal crossing Mama On a break 💕Posts: 2,481 Boards Champion
    Hey Shaunie we're here to talk I'm glad you've reached out, how are you doing now? :) 

    🌈Positive thoughts🌈

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    Shaunie
  • MikeMike Screen addict 🎮 LondonPosts: 3,001 Community Manager
    edited October 30
    As the others rightly said, we're here for you @Shaunie. :)

    If you need support urgently for those urges or you're worried you can't keep yourself safe at the mo, I'd really encourage you to call 999 or go to A&E. Or if that feels like too much, reach out to a crisis service like Papyrus or Crisis Messenger. Not only can they give you crisis support to help you through those moments, they can support you more quickly than we can on a forum. :star:  

    I know you've got an appointment coming up soon - is that contributing to those thoughts?

    It would be interesting to know what helps you most when you're in moments like this. Is a distraction useful? Or maybe a vent? It's also okay if there isn't a clear answer to that question. :)
    All behaviour is a need trying to be met.
    Shaunie
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,358 Part of The Furniture
    Hey Shaunie,

    It sounds like it’s been a tough day, I’m really sorry to hear you’re feeling like that.

    As the others have said if you ever want to chat about it we’re all here <3 
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
    Shaunie
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    Thank you all <3 xxxx
     
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 30
    It is the appointment making me feel like this. The closer it comes the sooner they could tell me they can’t help and I will have 0hope for the future. Which would automatically mean death I guess 😓
     
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie sending hugs ❤️ its understandable that the appointment would make it you feel on edge, especially when you don't know what is going to come from it. What makes you think they're not going to be able to help you? 
    Alis propriis volat 
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 30
    Because the white spots keep coming and going. And if they’re not theron the day then they will be like oh nothing is wrong. But I have pictures of when there is white spots. 
     
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie Its great that you've got the photos, they're a safe back up if the spots aren't there on the day. Maybe try and keep it in mind that you have the photos so you don't need to worry about whether they're going to be there or not. You can also tell this to the practioner, it could be a symptom or something! Worth letting them know anyway
    Alis propriis volat 
  • Anch0r33Anch0r33 Crazy Rat Lady 🐀 Posts: 566 Incredible Poster
    I'm sending hugs, I don't have anything more than what everyone has said but I agree with Eleanor, keep the pics handy so you don't stress about not being able to find them or whatever. 

    Always here if you need a chat <3
    👁️👄👁️
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 456 Listening Ear
    @Shaunie sending big hugs 💞
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 31
    Please someone help me. I’ve just found a an letter to say an cancelled appointment 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn’t say for what. Omg I had a text for a reminder and a letter of concellation

    im self harming rn. Help me😭😭😭😭😭 breathing so fast
     
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    Is anyone awake????😭😭😭😭😭
     
  • _John_John Posts: 80 Budding Regular
    Mike said:
    As the others rightly said, we're here for you @Shaunie. :)

    If you need support urgently for those urges or you're worried you can't keep yourself safe at the mo, I'd really encourage you to call 999 or go to A&E. Or if that feels like too much, reach out to a crisis service like Papyrus or Crisis Messenger. Not only can they give you crisis support to help you through those moments, they can support you more quickly than we can on a forum. :star:  

    I know you've got an appointment coming up soon - is that contributing to those thoughts?

    It would be interesting to know what helps you most when you're in moments like this. Is a distraction useful? Or maybe a vent? It's also okay if there isn't a clear answer to that question. :)

    Please consider this. 👆^  I don’t have anything else to say other than this. I want to add Samaritans (116 123) as well if you need it. Feel free to talk anytime now before I go to sleep soon.  :)
    "Appear weak when you are strong, and strong when you are weak."  - Sun Tzu
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    I don’t know the point anymore 😭😭😭😭😭 I’m confused about this appointment 😭😭😭😭😭 do I have it or not 😭
     
  • _John_John Posts: 80 Budding Regular
    Can you try and reach someone and respond back on who’s in charge of the appointment?
    "Appear weak when you are strong, and strong when you are weak."  - Sun Tzu
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie I'm awake if you want to talk ❤️
    Alis propriis volat 
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    Thank yous

    crying and hardly cry 😭. I’m guessing it’s cancelled cause of corona. I can’t wait any longer and I can’t afford private what do I do😭😭😭😭😭 I don’t want to be alive. I’m safe atm cause I’m planning on ringing them Monday 
     
  • _John_John Posts: 80 Budding Regular
    I hope everything goes well for you, I have to go to sleep. Just relax for now and try to stay for another tomorrow if you can!  :) Look after yourself. 
    "Appear weak when you are strong, and strong when you are weak."  - Sun Tzu
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    It doesn’t say what appointment or who with. Just an appointment cancelled. But today I got a text of a reminder ugh I’m confused. I have no other appointments tho
     
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    Thank you john
     
    _John
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie does it say who it was sent from at all? 
    Alis propriis volat 
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    Also @Shaunie it's alright to let yourself cry, it's actually really healthy ❤️ it's understandable that the confusion and concern surrounding the appointment has brought this on. You've got a good next step of calling them on Monday! 
    Alis propriis volat 
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    It says it’s from the NHS e-referral service which i don’t know what that is

     but they did have to change the time as they accidentally had me done for my ears instead. So changed the time. But I doubt it’s on about that because very late letter for that and would say the new time
     
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie ah okay, when is your appointment supposed to be for? 
    Alis propriis volat 
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    the 3rd (Tuesday)
     
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie Okay, so if you give them a call Monday morning then you'll have enough time to know before your appointment. If its not cancelled then that's great, but what do you think you could do if it is canceled to look after yourself? 
    Alis propriis volat 
  • EleanorEleanor Living the Zen life 🧘🏼‍♀️ Posts: 1,571 Extreme Poster
    @Shaunie How are you doing today ❤️

    Alis propriis volat 
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    I’m feeling better today. Just scared to ring them tomorrow. I’m working full day so I guess I’ll have to ring them on one Of my breaks and so I guess I could keep myself safe if they say it’s been cancelled. I don’t know why it would be cancelled tho. It was easy to get the appointment and they even asked if I wanted it the same week I asked but I could cause was at work for every one they said until this one. So i don’t know why would be cancelled But yeah unless cause covid Gone worse:((( 
     
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  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,360 An Original Mixlorian
    My appointment isn’t cancelled 😊
     
    EleanorPast User
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