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Christmas Is Hard..

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  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Have you thought about speaking to somebody about what's going on, maybe that could help you begin to work through everything that is affecting you

    I have been in touch with The Samaritans via text for the past two days now but I feel too afraid to share things with them, especially via text or email :s I am awaiting the psychiatric assessment on Jan 7th. It is approaching closer and closer though does still feel like ages away :S x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I don't really have anyone to talk to :S
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    I don't really have anyone to talk to :S


    You can talk here, if you wanted. There is also other organisations and support forums around.

    Also if you go to your GP, they may refer you onto somebody you could talk to about things. :heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Thank you for that-I just feel Im not worth the time for someone to read and reply to me on here, even though you kindly are.

    I have to wait for the assessment appointment and see what they decide from there, if anything :S xx
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    Thank you for that-I just feel Im not worth the time for someone to read and reply to me on here, even though you kindly are.

    I have to wait for the assessment appointment and see what they decide from there, if anything :S xx


    Everyone who uses TheSite deserves support, and for people to care about them, your not different. Sometimes when we are struggling, we can be hard on ourselves, and talk down about ourselves. So I know what you may think about yourself, may seem real to you, it's not the case.

    Hope that makes sense.

    Hopefully when you get your assessment appointment you can hopefully start to move forward and get the support you need & deserve.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture

    I have been in touch with The Samaritans via text for the past two days now but I feel too afraid to share things with them, especially via text or email :s I am awaiting the psychiatric assessment on Jan 7th. It is approaching closer and closer though does still feel like ages away :S x


    It's good that you've been texting the Samaritans. What worries you about sharing things with them?

  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hey @AngelFace97,

    Everyone here tries their best to ensure everyone feels supported as much as we can :) is there anything in particular that makes you feel you're not worth the time?

    You still have some time before the appointment - I wonder if any of the tips from the website I posted in one of your previous threads were useful for you?

    Doc Ready might also be a handy tool, if you think writing things down before you go might help :)
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru


    Everyone who uses TheSite deserves support, and for people to care about them, your not different. Sometimes when we are struggling, we can be hard on ourselves, and talk down about ourselves. So I know what you may think about yourself, may seem real to you, it's not the case.

    Hope that makes sense.

    Hopefully when you get your assessment appointment you can hopefully start to move forward and get the support you need & deserve.

    The thing is as well though I really don't feel that I deserve any help or support and if I did deserve It, I would have had it in some way by now :S

    That does make sense and I do understand that thank you, I guess it's just hard to accept.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru


    It's good that you've been texting the Samaritans. What worries you about sharing things with them?

    It just worries me and makes me feel cautious so easily. I am afraid of looking stupid, pathetic and like a big baby to others :( x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    I guess cos you haven't had the support yet, it may be hard for you to believe you deserve it, but you do. These things take a long time. Waiting lists are long, but you'll get there.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Thank you so much Raich-The website you previously gave to me in another thread was very helpful and I appreciate you took the time to do that for me.

    I don't feel worth the time because I am stupid, pathetic and a big baby etc who is clearly selfish and doesn't care about anyone, or even herself! Yet the truth is, I care a lot about anyone and everyone else a lot more than what I do in fact care about myself :s Confusing really:s

    I will try DocReady to try to help me prepare and perhaps get a list written ready for the appointment.

    The appointment is 10 days away today :S

    x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I guess cos you haven't had the support yet, it may be hard for you to believe you deserve it, but you do. These things take a long time. Waiting lists are long, but you'll get there.

    I have been on such a long and difficult journey already and understand how long it is and how long it takes, unfortunately :(

    Thank you for that, I guess I'll have to at least try to believe that. x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture

    I have been on such a long and difficult journey already and understand how long it is and how long it takes, unfortunately :(

    Thank you for that, I guess I'll have to at least try to believe that. x


    *hug*s
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Thank you so much Raich-The website you previously gave to me in another thread was very helpful and I appreciate you took the time to do that for me.

    I don't feel worth the time because I am stupid, pathetic and a big baby etc who is clearly selfish and doesn't care about anyone, or even herself! Yet the truth is, I care a lot about anyone and everyone else a lot more than what I do in fact care about myself :s Confusing really:s

    I will try DocReady to try to help me prepare and perhaps get a list written ready for the appointment.

    The appointment is 10 days away today :S

    x


    I'm glad it helped :)

    I don't think those things of you at all, and seeing you posting around the boards supporting others, and reaching out for support yourself, shows that you do care for yourself and others :yes:

    A list sounds like a great idea - deep breaths, you still have time *hug*
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I'll get there one day, we all will and do but it's still really difficult :s x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    raich wrote: »


    I'm glad it helped :)

    I don't think those things of you at all, and seeing you posting around the boards supporting others, and reaching out for support yourself, shows that you do care for yourself and others :yes:

    A list sounds like a great idea - deep breaths, you still have time *hug*

    I do still have some time to write a list down though those 10 days are bound to go pretty quickly in a way, which is both a good and bad thing :S :)

    Deep breaths is something I need to do actually to calm down since I'm still teary at the moment :(

    Thank you x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    10 days is a while - perhaps you could write down a couple things a day?

    If you think deep breaths will help give it a go and let us know how you get on *hug*

    Do you think support chat tonight will help you let off some steam? :)
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    raich wrote: »
    10 days is a while - perhaps you could write down a couple things a day?

    If you think deep breaths will help give it a go and let us know how you get on *hug*

    Do you think support chat tonight will help you let off some steam? :)

    If I am able to, then I may go into support chat and see if/how/whether it helps me. I have never tried Support Chat before but maybe I could give it a go :)

    I will certainly try taking deep breaths and seeing how I get on with that.

    A couple of things down a day to write down does sound like something which may help better than writing it all at once.x
  • Former MemberFormer Member :) Posts: 2,072 Boards Champion
    Hi AngelFace97 :heart:

    I just wanted to reach out to you with *hug* s.

    I really hope things get better for you!
  • Former MemberFormer Member :) Posts: 2,072 Boards Champion
    I hope 2016 is the year for all of us- for those in a good place for it to continue and for those of us struggling for things to get better *fingers crossed*
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    apandav wrote: »
    I hope 2016 is the year for all of us- for those in a good place for it to continue and for those of us struggling for things to get better *fingers crossed*

    Thanks apandav :heart: I hope so too.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    apandav wrote: »
    Hi AngelFace97 :heart:

    I just wanted to reach out to you with *hug* s.

    I really hope things get better for you!

    Thank you so much Amanda, I hope so too! I really do *hugs* x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Self Esteem has just fallen lower...Saw that I have put on weight. Im so fat and ugly 😰😰

  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    :crying::mad:x
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    *hug*s

    Wanna chat?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Another night of broken and disturbed sleep.

    Self-esteem lower-Am fat and ugly.Must lose weight somehow.

    Arguments with parents.

    Missing my girlfriend.

    Worrying about appointment.

    😰💔😐😕xx
  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    Another night of broken and disturbed sleep.

    Self-esteem lower-Am fat and ugly.Must lose weight somehow.

    Arguments with parents.

    Missing my girlfriend.

    Worrying about appointment.

    😰💔😐😕xx

    That all sounds very difficult for you. I'm sorry to hear your going through all that.

    I generally wish I could be more helpful but I kind of dont know what to say. Just know we care and we are here for you *hug*s :heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    And that isn't even all of it...Some of those were triggered last night through weighing myself and seeing my girlfriend's pictures.

    Please don't say that, you are being helpful by listening to me and showing me that others do care, even though I often feel that nobody cares, understands or even likes me xx

  • Former MemberFormer Member Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,462 Part of The Furniture
    *hug*s

    We all care :heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,875,648 The Mix Honorary Guru
    *hug*s

    We all care :heart:

    I know you all do, thank you, it's just hard to believe and accept as I haven't felt cared for/cared about in so long x
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