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Well, I couldn't think of a better subject for this thread as I have got no idea what my problem is or how to even start tackling it.
I have always had it easy in school, and pulled ridiculous grades compared to the effort I put into my studies. I have somehow always found the "school system" quite easy to see through and not put much work into it.
However, now that I am on my third year in college/high school (I never know what to call it ) my grades are dropping and I am getting a bit panicky. That is however not because I am finding that things are getting harder, I am just somehow losing interest in everything I do. I just do not feel motivated to achieve anything, and yet I do know that I want to achieve something, I just got no idea what that is! I am not ambitious at all and even when I do something I enjoy there is no passion behind it, and that really haunts me. And then when I do well, what happens? I start feeling guilty because my friends didn't do as well! :mad: :mad: :mad: (Don't think that I don't want them to do well, I am just so mad at me for feeling guilty about getting high grades) I'm not even going to mention when I "accidentally" do worse simply because I don't want my friends to feel worse because I can do something they can't. :mad:
I nearly flunked in maths last year (scoring 40% when the 35% was the absolute minimum you could get) and swore to myself that it would change. Did it happen? Not at all. Do I care? I try to, but I just can't do it. And now it's happening all over again.
I do not know if any of you really understand what I am talking about but I am lost for any solutions. I just feel that right now I am wasting my time struggling to do something that I have got no desire to do, and yet I really want to do it (:eek2: can that possibly make sense?).
Right now I feel like a 100% quitter, but I do so want to change it. I don't want to break down and "not care" whenever I face a challenge.
Sorry for how long this is.. I am just so lost right now.
I have always had it easy in school, and pulled ridiculous grades compared to the effort I put into my studies. I have somehow always found the "school system" quite easy to see through and not put much work into it.
However, now that I am on my third year in college/high school (I never know what to call it ) my grades are dropping and I am getting a bit panicky. That is however not because I am finding that things are getting harder, I am just somehow losing interest in everything I do. I just do not feel motivated to achieve anything, and yet I do know that I want to achieve something, I just got no idea what that is! I am not ambitious at all and even when I do something I enjoy there is no passion behind it, and that really haunts me. And then when I do well, what happens? I start feeling guilty because my friends didn't do as well! :mad: :mad: :mad: (Don't think that I don't want them to do well, I am just so mad at me for feeling guilty about getting high grades) I'm not even going to mention when I "accidentally" do worse simply because I don't want my friends to feel worse because I can do something they can't. :mad:
I nearly flunked in maths last year (scoring 40% when the 35% was the absolute minimum you could get) and swore to myself that it would change. Did it happen? Not at all. Do I care? I try to, but I just can't do it. And now it's happening all over again.
I do not know if any of you really understand what I am talking about but I am lost for any solutions. I just feel that right now I am wasting my time struggling to do something that I have got no desire to do, and yet I really want to do it (:eek2: can that possibly make sense?).
Right now I feel like a 100% quitter, but I do so want to change it. I don't want to break down and "not care" whenever I face a challenge.
Sorry for how long this is.. I am just so lost right now.
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1) Go get yaself a Saturday job, after the novalty has worn off you will realise that you need to pass those exams unless you want to work there for ever,....
2) Drop out ONCE you have finnished your exams, go do something else, find out what intrests you....
I did the top choice, now im "studying" at uni!
Bopz
I worked all summer long, and really started to miss school at the end. I have however thought about getting a job now to earn some money.
I honestly don't know what to do.. Although I guess the key would be to change hwo I spend my time.. like do homwork, go earlier to bed, pay more attention, and stop wasting so much time in front of the computer.. But the willpower to do so is nowhere near...
Ah.. I think I'll go do my homework.
Fáfnir VII, can I just say that I feel EXACTLY the same way as you do!
Every single thing that you said in your initial post is the same as how I feel.
I also excelled at school, but showed little passion for studying in college. I am now at university doing a maths degree. I really want a degree, but it really doesn't seem like I do.
And also, whenever I do well at something, I do feel guilty and sorry for friends around me.
Basically what I'm trying to say is ........ I feel exactly the same as you!!!
Bopz
Everything just seems so pointless, especially as I'm watching my grades drop dangerously much, and yet I don't really give a damn. :rolleyes: