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dexedrine, rehab, alcohol-CAUTION-ESSAY ALERT!!!
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its long..u hav bn warned.....
im terrified. god i dont know where 2 start. so im gonna try n do this in a timeline sorta way.
started smokin draw-15yrs
at 17 after a year of smokin, drinkin, speed and E, i fell into a drug psychosis- severe paranoia, conspiracy theories.
tried to kill myself-stopped smokin draw n found myself drinkin more.
saw a headdoc, told him bout my drug/alcohol history so he sent me to a rehab 4 six wks cheers mate o + get this his name was Dr. Nutter. i was in a weak state so i went along wiv it, with his promise that wen i came bck he'd help me with the other probs.
had my 18th B.day in da rehab, came bck n all my doc wanted to do was send me to AA.
I KNOW i dint have a drug.alcohol abuse prob at this time. Got bck n started drinkin a lot so i could cut myself, suicide attempts-lots of dramatic shit.
Got out of depression wiv new doc + antidepressents.
Still VERY paranoid but forced myself to go out, w/out drinkin so i could stop bein so nervous round pple again.
Felt almost normal soon so decided it was ok 2 drink again when i wanted.
Now.... ive always bn a bit of a pisshead! not so much wen i was smokin ganj tho.
But in the past year, ive bn gettin quite pissed up n havin really bad hangovers. Im also on anti-psychotics so the paranoia is fading. Now mynew headdoc has put me on dexedrine-speed basically, to help me lose weight! (hes obsessed wiv wantin to make me lk stunnin)
and i feel an addiction comin on. Im worried bout my drinkin, my dad was an alcoholic and now hes a proper toker. Mum says he 'always has to have somethin'
I know i hav a problem cos i get too pissed wen i dont want to, but i cant say this, especially after bein in rehab and havin loadsa alcoholics n junkies tellin me ill b back.
Thing is I used to be so confident B4 this all began. I was nver bothered bout what pple thought of me, I didnt wonder if i was sayin the wrong thing, i was popular, I loved attention and had no problem talkin in front of groups of pple, makin new friends(nver been gd at keepin them), introducin myself or doin n e thin.
Now i talk so quietly sumtimes pple dont hear me, i mumble, i analyse everythin i do, i worry constantly and i get so nervous bout spendin time wit pple.
Im scared. There i said it. Im terrified that i need alcohol.
Im terrified of not bein able to b myself
Im terrified that i am an alcoholic after all and cant control my drinkin.
Shit. I hate this.
if only i could smoke draw again, i swear everythin wud b alrite.....
im terrified. god i dont know where 2 start. so im gonna try n do this in a timeline sorta way.
started smokin draw-15yrs
at 17 after a year of smokin, drinkin, speed and E, i fell into a drug psychosis- severe paranoia, conspiracy theories.
tried to kill myself-stopped smokin draw n found myself drinkin more.
saw a headdoc, told him bout my drug/alcohol history so he sent me to a rehab 4 six wks cheers mate o + get this his name was Dr. Nutter. i was in a weak state so i went along wiv it, with his promise that wen i came bck he'd help me with the other probs.
had my 18th B.day in da rehab, came bck n all my doc wanted to do was send me to AA.
I KNOW i dint have a drug.alcohol abuse prob at this time. Got bck n started drinkin a lot so i could cut myself, suicide attempts-lots of dramatic shit.
Got out of depression wiv new doc + antidepressents.
Still VERY paranoid but forced myself to go out, w/out drinkin so i could stop bein so nervous round pple again.
Felt almost normal soon so decided it was ok 2 drink again when i wanted.
Now.... ive always bn a bit of a pisshead! not so much wen i was smokin ganj tho.
But in the past year, ive bn gettin quite pissed up n havin really bad hangovers. Im also on anti-psychotics so the paranoia is fading. Now mynew headdoc has put me on dexedrine-speed basically, to help me lose weight! (hes obsessed wiv wantin to make me lk stunnin)
and i feel an addiction comin on. Im worried bout my drinkin, my dad was an alcoholic and now hes a proper toker. Mum says he 'always has to have somethin'
I know i hav a problem cos i get too pissed wen i dont want to, but i cant say this, especially after bein in rehab and havin loadsa alcoholics n junkies tellin me ill b back.
Thing is I used to be so confident B4 this all began. I was nver bothered bout what pple thought of me, I didnt wonder if i was sayin the wrong thing, i was popular, I loved attention and had no problem talkin in front of groups of pple, makin new friends(nver been gd at keepin them), introducin myself or doin n e thin.
Now i talk so quietly sumtimes pple dont hear me, i mumble, i analyse everythin i do, i worry constantly and i get so nervous bout spendin time wit pple.
Im scared. There i said it. Im terrified that i need alcohol.
Im terrified of not bein able to b myself
Im terrified that i am an alcoholic after all and cant control my drinkin.
Shit. I hate this.
if only i could smoke draw again, i swear everythin wud b alrite.....
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peace and gud luck
Secondly you should NOT be drinking with most anti-psychotic medinces, they dont mix well and may well be the reason you are getting monster hang overs. Its really bad for your liver and kidneys.
I would suspect that it is the mix of drugs that you are taking that is making the problem worse not better. If you feel you need the anti-psychotic then I'd advise strongly against mixing it with ANYTHING else at all.
If you cant do without the boose etc, then I would phone your local health authority and see if they can put you in touch with a local drug treatment center.
I'd also say if you doctor is giving you speed to look "stunning" then perhaps there is something wrong there.