I hav a serious problem and i dont know what to do about it. I feel so sad and alone even though i hav loadsa friends and evrything. I hate evrything about myself even though my mates would tell u i am a nice person and pretty. I cant see it, i look in the mirror and i feel sick. I think of my life and i want to cry. I feel so down, like ive fallen down a hole. i can honestly say i hav never felt so bad. I just dont know what to do anymore. All i seem to do is be living a lie, evryday i put on a false smile (i hav to otherwise i would just crack and then cry all the time). Iv tried talking to my friends but they all think im mad and they dont think it is anything serious because i smile. The more i smile the deeper the problems go though, its like im trying to fool evryone and myself. Iv lost the real me in putting up this pretense, i dont know who i am anymore. I feel like and im drowning and i dont know which way to turn. Please tell me how to deal with this.