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Hey, new to this forum but just looking for some advice in all honesty. I've been a regular MDMA user in the passed couple of years but recently have been taking it maybe every months or so. Recently, upon taking it, I've been having really strange paranoid thoughts. Like people are talking about me and that I don't feel good enough to be around their company. I'm a 22 year old female and I have some intelligence capacity and even though I'm in my own world (let's be fair, who isn't at times?) I have never been a socially inept person and I'm always complimented on my attitude as I'm always "smiley". I think I may have an underlying issue that needs to be addressed (I don't want to reveal too much about myself because it's frankly embarrassing) but a year and half ago I was raped by two of my 'friends' and ever since that, I just have this constant fear. I can drink, I can take MDMA but as soon as it comes to 'coming down', I just feel lost and so fucking paranoid! It's driving me insane. I don't want to be this socially-inept, awkward, panicking person because this just isn't me. So, any of yourselves out there who have experienced something similar on this? I'm cutting it out for a long time, maybe even permanently but I'd like to say I'm in control of this type of stuff.