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The decision to take drugs...
**helen**
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For those of you who have taken any drug that isn't alcohol, cigarettes or caffeine
What was your decision making process?
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What was your decision making process?
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Started with weed and ecstasy and although I have grown to dislike weed now, I still think ecstasy is an incredible experience.
My decision to use was always in order to escape reality. For one reason or other, I never gained much of an ability to handle it without making the excuse "I can't do this without being high". After 12 years of using drugs, mostly ice, I've gotten tired of the excuses and relapses and lies I've told everyone. It could be anything from not being able to forget my childhood from hell and the damage it's done to simply oversleeping one morning. Took a long time to realize that they were only excuaes. I could find another way. Working on finding at least an effectice one.
It's really positive to hear you're working on finding another way, thanks for sharing your story.
Have you accessed any professional support?
Helen,
i do go to NA amd have a sponsor, but she seems to be on the lax side of things. I miss my old sponsor who was tougher, easier to listen to and made more sense. I do have a therapist though.
It's really positive that you've got some professional support - it sounds like you're taking all the right steps.
Do you think you could talk to your sponsor and ask them to be a bit stricter? I guess with sponsors, it can be a bit hit and miss. I'm not sure how your NA group is set up, but maybe you could ask for a different sponsor?
Having a therapist is another great step. Do you find them helpful?
JPic,
I think it is time for either a new sponsor, @or something in addition. I see my therapist tomorrow so I will bring a lot of this up- I think it will help. I also think taking more proactive steps, like going to more meetings and finding a support group outside. I get distracted into a million things outside of recovery. I also get lazy after doing well for a while. I stop doing as much of the program because I'm doing well. I want to be the person who encourages, helps strengthen and support others through recovery. I'm so tired of it being the other way around, but I can't be that without being stable in it all, myself. The hardest part of a desire is the work to turn it nto a reality. The rest are your benefits.