Sex and masturbation

I saw this thread and wanted to reply even though the question was asked years ago in case people stumble across this thread like I did wondering the same question. I do not like masturbating because I'm always busy doing things and live in a family without much privacy so I never really thought of masturbating. When I did try touching down there, I couldn't really excite myself in the same way that guys do when they imagine sexual things. I wouldn't let my boyfriend finger me because it hurt and I did not have sex for a long time because I thought it would be very painful. It wasn't painful really, more uncomfortable and not being able to fit the whole penis in, the first having sex, if you can even call it that. The pain lessens over time and more of the penis can fit inside. I still don't like fingering/masturbating and prefer sex because mentally I feel like it belongs more than a finger or myself imagining things. Maybe if I really worked hard at it I'd like masturbating, but I think I also prefer the intimacy coming from being with a guy in an emotional way rather than being by yourself. I hope this helps!