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Annaarrr!!
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If you feel suicidal, and you feel like completely destroying yourself and you feel like you're better off dead, BUT you wont do anything to harm yourself, is it even worth getting help?
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Hope my reply has helped. Stay strong x
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
The point is that you deserve that help and support. No matter how much you tell yourself there is no point cos there is a point.
Life can be tough sometimes and it can feel dark and alone but you can get through this.
Sending you lots of hugs.
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
This, to me, sounds like there's something keeping you here, something that is stopping you from harming and ending your life. Do you have any idea what that is?
I don't know what the point in life is, but the 'tiniest bits of light' are hope, little glimpses of how good and happy your life will eventually be one day. You've just got to try to keep fighting.
You deserve help. You're clearly in a really dark place at the minute and I think a trip to your GP would be a good idea. I know it probably seems impossible for you, but you can get through this and I truly believe you're strong enough.
I dont really see any point in going to a GP though, what can they do? Counselling really doesn't do anything for me and I don't wanna be watched constantly and have people worried cos I'm feeling depressed and suicidal cos I'm at no risk atm. They would most likely put me on meds cos thats where it was going before simply because techniques like CBT dont work on me because there is no cause for my depression, ive had no event thats made me feel this way i just have depression.
Obviously anti-depressants work differently for everyone but after seeing my dad on them I'm not happy to risk the happiness of others around me if they have to deal with more severe mood swings. And I'm uncomfortable with my weight atm so I'm not gonna put myself in a position that is gonna make me want to go back to starving myself.
I'm not trying to be like no no no wont work and shit but it really does seem like I just have to carry on living like this and its getting more and more difficult to live with. Just feeling like I don't have many choices with this
The GP may be able to suggest a different thing to help you, if you explain to her/him that you don't want meds or CBT. If you don't like what s/he suggests then that's fine, you're under no pressure at all to do whatever she says.
You say you won't do anything because you don't want to hurt your family, that's good, and they clearly care about you. You need to find positive ways of coping with things. What do you enjoy doing? Maybe tell us about things that make you happy and why?
Get support as it could get worse hugs. the feelings are still there and should be listened to.
This is why I'm pessimistic about professional help, it just feels like my life is completely wrong for me, and i really can't change that until the summer
The only thing that makes me happy is spending time with my boyfriend. Everything else is just a distraction. Its all just hollow actions that leave me feeling empty after, none of it lasts.
I just want to point out that you are not alone at all, we are here for you *hug*
What have you been up to today?
I hope you're a little better tonight *hug*
Has anything happened tonight to make you feel worse?
Sending hugs *hug*
yes it has.
thank you x
Maybe coming into chat could help distract you for a little while. And also distractions.
Sometimes when I am struggling late at night I text the Samaritans or watch a movie on netflix or listen to music. I really hope something helps you lovely. Sending you hugs
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "