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I'm struggling.
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I think the post Suicidal has gotten a bit long now, I'm struggling really bad.
I don't know what is going on, I'm struggling with my Mental Health really bad, I thought I could see a slight future before but I can't anymore, I've been put on a waiting list for counselling but I don't know if I can wait that long, I don't know what's going on anymore, I know everyday I wake up and hate the fact I have, Everyday I wake up knowing my wish to have died in my sleep has failed. I hope one day that wish comes true, and that I go to sleep and never wake up again.
I'm struggling to deal with everything, I've never harmed myself as bad or as much as I have been doing in the past couple of days. Everything is a battle, I'm isolating myself in my room, and looking at suicidal photos on the internet, which is making me feel like shit but i can't stop it.
I feel worthless because I can't do anything, I can't help anyone all i can do is cause harm to people, That I'm a pointless human being that has no meaning in this l should just go away and never come back, Vanish from the world because all I'm doing is hurting people, I hurt my own mum, to the point she's telling everyone I've died in a car crash, I hurt my family, I hurt my friends, I hurt everyone.
I'm just not sure what to do anymore...its all so hard to carry on living
I don't know what is going on, I'm struggling with my Mental Health really bad, I thought I could see a slight future before but I can't anymore, I've been put on a waiting list for counselling but I don't know if I can wait that long, I don't know what's going on anymore, I know everyday I wake up and hate the fact I have, Everyday I wake up knowing my wish to have died in my sleep has failed. I hope one day that wish comes true, and that I go to sleep and never wake up again.
I'm struggling to deal with everything, I've never harmed myself as bad or as much as I have been doing in the past couple of days. Everything is a battle, I'm isolating myself in my room, and looking at suicidal photos on the internet, which is making me feel like shit but i can't stop it.
I feel worthless because I can't do anything, I can't help anyone all i can do is cause harm to people, That I'm a pointless human being that has no meaning in this l should just go away and never come back, Vanish from the world because all I'm doing is hurting people, I hurt my own mum, to the point she's telling everyone I've died in a car crash, I hurt my family, I hurt my friends, I hurt everyone.
I'm just not sure what to do anymore...its all so hard to carry on living
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Is there anyway of contacting the counselling service to say you need to see someone ASAP? Or see your GP and say you need more support?
You've had so much to deal with, and you've cone through it and absolutely none of what has happened is your fault. I honestly do believe you have a future.
Would you consider making a regular GP appointment for this week? Just thinking they might be able to offer more immediate support, even if it's only as someone to check in with.
Keep it up :thumb:
This ^ We all love you Emmy
Hey Em, I'm sorry to hear last night was really tough for you. How are you doing today?
He sounds like a good egg. Well done for going.
Well played
Sounds like the first session went well, I had therapy with a man o.o - And he was sound, and just easier to talk to, females ask to much :P - Well the ones I've had do! - Best of luck with it though
Keep us posted with how you getting on :thumb:
purple_rain
Whoever it is who doesn't want you to be happy isn't worth bothering about. You do deserve to be happy but you need to start believing that yourself. It is so hard when people we care about are so uncaring in response, but try to remember that you're the bigger person. Is there any way you can put some space between yourself and these people? Sometimes it's kinder to yourself to step away from the fire.
If you feel able to, do tell us a bit more about what has upset you... but of course only if you want to.
*hug*
I feel low, and feel like I'm going to harm (I will end up doing soon). I don't know what else I can do, because everything I can, I have. I just feel really low and I've had enough, I don't feel I fit in or belong anywhere. I'm just, a worthless person who doesn't deserve happiness.