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Hello, I am new to TheSite.org forum. I was sent here from the mental health forum because they're having difficulty registering. Where do I start? In a sense, i'm not looking for help, pity or any of those other unnecessary emotions that will be triggered through reading this post. I guess I just wanted you all to relies something before we start engaging in a conversation. There is so much detail to be said in order for you to get the whole picture but never the less, it doesn't matter how much of the picture that is revealed, you will find it hard to put yourself in my place, the thoughts, the emotions and the bitter, dark place i've somehow strolled into. A place which has my sense misguided, a smile can trigger rage, a hug will be declined whether family member or not, same thing with love. A place where trainspotting is a lot more like hatespotting. Although it is not hard to miss, all you have to do is open your eyes and you'll find it almost everywhere and even in the unexpected places. I relies that I am randomly blabbering on but yet again, it helps me to release a small amount of tension so much that my rage can be neutralized a bit. I will continue to post so feel free to read along whether it interests you.
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There can't be light without dark. xx
Without suffering there can be no compassion. I like to think my negative experiences of my past make me more considerate of others, and perhaps make me a bit wiser.
I think it's the way of the universe, a balance of light and dark. Sometimes our personal balance gets out of whack. xx
Welcome to thesite, feel free to PM me if you ever fancy a chat. I can relate a lot to the things you've said.
Carpentry is a skill, if you rush it your skill will only be so-so. Take your time and you'll get there. The better you are, the more work you'll get.
It's great you want to help your mother and little sister, but what does your mother say. I'm sure she wouldn't want you to put yourself under unnecessary pressure. But I can understand that, I want to make some money so I can help out my family. My parents have done so much for me, I want to be able to say here's some cash, now take it easy.
Have you talked to your teacher about how you're feeling? I got a lot of support at college when I explained I was struggling with depression. I got extra time and help, if you feel up to it, it could be beneficial to you to say something.
And with being fake, it's like Broken-Angel said, sometimes it can help to be fake. I know when I was dealing with awkward customers I'd smile and pretend they weren't behaving horribly, necessary for a pay check.
Hope you're having a better day today xx.
It's maybe because I have turned into something that wants to be the best at what he does. To crush his opponents when it comes to presenting the skills learned. If I do not force myself then how can I ever learn faster than the others. I did that last time and it wasn't a good story, I don't trust councilors any more. I overslept today so no college for two weeks now because it's a holiday and I don't need to go in on Thursday and Friday. Hopefully within the two weeks my apprenticeship contacts me for the interview so then I can start there before having to show my face in college again.
You said it yourself. Why rush the learning process to be better? There is no guarantee that being quicker means you'll be better. Like the saying goes; slow and steady wins the race. By slowing down, focusing on the learning you can be the best at what you do, then learn how to be quicker, you'll get more jobs that way. xx
That makes sense, i'll note that and try it on for size.
Why follow the herd? Let everyone else do that while you step out of the ordinary. xx
Heard this song and after reading your poetry I wondered if you might like it.
The Pierces - Sticks & Stones
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=FAU2Pf78fXE
-it may not work, my computer is playing up.