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Feeling down and unheard...

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
I'm begrudgingly writting this...I don't want to admit to feeling down, because I think it makes me pretty undesirable to anyone and everyone...not that I think that of other people.

Its probably to be expected, not only is it getting to that time of year (my birthday, xmas, etc), but being made homeless and it looking less and less likely that I'll have anywhere to live by xmas, is going to make me feel pretty crap. But I can't get any help from the NHS until I have somewhere stable to live. Vicious circle!

I'm not too sure what to do about it, Samaritians don't really get it right now. I've got nothing to look forward to, I feel like I'm ignored by most people, and those who do give me some attention it feels just pity me. I'm just starting to feel full of misery and quite blank. Most of my friends just aren't able to give me any support, so I'm doing it all on my own. I feel like i'm just battling through each day to no clear end.

Any ideas?

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  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Miss_Riot :wave:

    It was obviously hard to write down how you were feeling and its clear you don't want to be pitied in anyway.

    Birthdays and Xmas's can rake up loads of old memories for most people, bad and good. Your not alone there. With everything else your having to deal with at the minute it must be hard to get excited about either.

    I dont know too much about your housing situation, but I can see from your previous posts that you have been in touch with Shelter. Have you given them a full update on your situation and asked for advice on where to go from here?

    You say you can't get help from the NHS without a permanent address? Are you still registered with a doctor. Is there any chance you could go and speak to them?

    Let us know how you get on?

    Phil
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hi Miss Riot,

    Sorry to hear that you aren't doing too well. It is understandable given what you have got going on at the moment.

    I know what you mean about not getting much help when your address is uncertain, I've been there myself and the council tried to put me in a hostel for people with mental health problems miles away from the treatment catchment area for the day hospital that I had already been referred to. Crazy. I wish they didn't have such strict catchment area rules, it would make life a whole lot easier for many people.

    You know you can pm me anytime. I hope things look up soon for you.

    xx
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Both shelter and the council say we just have to stay put until the court process goes through, and we're evicted by court bailiffs or the council finds us somewhere to stay, which ever is sooner. We're in pretty much daily contact with both of them, but it seems there nothing more either of them can do.

    The drs are well aware of how I'm feeling and my situation. I have a CPN who I see every 2 weeks ish, but she can't refer me on to anything until i have somewhere stable to live. I've been given tablets for my anxiety which take the edge off things, but don't stop me getting panicy. I've been told that I'm SSRI resistant, and I'm really not keen on using drugs to treat my depression because it's reactive to life events rather than just out of the blue.

    I'm just wondering if there's any I can do whilst all of this is going on, if I can't get help from anyone else.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hi Miss_Riot :heart:

    It does sound like your stuck behind a rock and a hard place.

    It seems like one of those situations where (especially when it comes to the housing) your gonna have to just sit it out and listen to the advice your receiving from Shelter and the council. They're the experts in these matters.

    With regards to the anxiety. It sounds like you have a lot of insight into that. All of these things may seem obvious to you, but TheSite has some good self-help links on coping with anxiety. If you've not checked them out before it might be worthwhile taking a look at the link below.

    http://www.thesite.org/healthandwellbeing/mentalhealth/anxietyandstress/anxietygettinghelp

    Hope that helps. Sometimes just venting on here is enough to relieve a bit of the stress. *hug*

    Phil
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Comfort eating - not ideal I know, but a little something (well half a pot of ben & jerry's cos it was half price) seems to help.

    I'm not feeling good cos of antibiotics (now on the second lot because the first didn't do anything) for infected lymph nodes, so I'm just curling up on the sofa and keeping myself comfy.

    We might have had a turn up for the books on the housing front, but I don't want to get my hopes up until it actually materialises.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hi Miss_Riot :wave:

    a bit of comfort eating is needed by us all at times *hug*

    Hope you have good news with the housing situation, let us know how you get on, we're all thinking of you.

    dp :heart:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I saw the place we've been offered by the council today from the outside - location great, and it looks nice enough from the outside, but it looks tiny tiny! I'm not sure how it can be a 2 bedroom house, its really that small, I'm hoping it doesn't just have 2 single rooms. For some reason its just really got me down again, which is a shit because surely this should be cheering me up. Feeling unwell is also really getting me down, I'm hoping I can be referred to a specialist soon, because I'm fed up of all these miscelaneious pains and infections and swellings and stuff.

    Most of all, I just some people to hang out with, have fun with and stuff. It doesn't seem a big ask in writing but in real world terms it seems huge.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    When Leigh lived Oxfordshire way he had a small house. One of theose through kitchen/lounge things but the bedrooms were ok. Was nice the way he did it. Vertical blind across 80% of the divide between the kitchen/lounge so when you were sitting down in the lounge it was quite cosy and you felt 'cut off' from the kitchen. So chin up, might be fine inside.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I hope so. Hey, at least I can have a dog and/or a cat cos it has a small garden, and its not near a main road.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Well a agrden is always good, and as you say it's in a good area. I'd much rather have a smallish house in a nice area than a big place in a shithole :)
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,328 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I kind of feel like I'm repeating myself in different threads but I'll do it again just so people don't have to cross reference.

    The bunglow didn't work out, we're not going to be offered anything this week because we're way down the list, looking at other options but heck its not looking bright.

    I talked to my support worker about upping my medication, and she said that its not going to make the situation better. I have no idea what I can do anymore, I just know I'm very close to running out of steam. everything physically hurts and I feel like i've not got much to look forward to right now, not because of any melodramatic-ness, just because, right now I don't have much in my life asides this horrible situation which feels like its swollowing me whole.
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