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Depression self harm suicidal thoughts *triggering*
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Hello all,
I am glad you are reading my post, although I'm afraid it's quiet a lame post, when of cource you come to think of it.
I've been having suicidal thoughts for a few years now, I do not like having suicidal thoughts, because ones father finds it wierd.
I wish my thoughts of suicide would go away. I started to self harm since one got beat up constantly after school and one gets abused by ones parents. I though the whole world hated me like I was useless and pathetic and good at nothing so I kept cutting my sef to get my emotions out I feel as though there are no other options besides cutting my self.
I draw with my own blood on a piece of paper all my feelings and the coluor black. To get all my emotians out.
I have so many thoughts of suicide and death and feel like killing my self I have even attempted to kill my self before, I tryed to strangle my self once or suficate my self with a plastic bag tied round my head unfortuatly non of those had worked and I'm still fukin alive.
My mother saidd she wishes I was dead, so does my sister they say so many things to me such as why are you stilll alive and everything.
I hate my life I feel unwanted by everyone, I feel lonely, lost and confused as well.
I just do not know what to do with my life.
I am glad you are reading my post, although I'm afraid it's quiet a lame post, when of cource you come to think of it.
I've been having suicidal thoughts for a few years now, I do not like having suicidal thoughts, because ones father finds it wierd.
I wish my thoughts of suicide would go away. I started to self harm since one got beat up constantly after school and one gets abused by ones parents. I though the whole world hated me like I was useless and pathetic and good at nothing so I kept cutting my sef to get my emotions out I feel as though there are no other options besides cutting my self.
I draw with my own blood on a piece of paper all my feelings and the coluor black. To get all my emotians out.
I have so many thoughts of suicide and death and feel like killing my self I have even attempted to kill my self before, I tryed to strangle my self once or suficate my self with a plastic bag tied round my head unfortuatly non of those had worked and I'm still fukin alive.
My mother saidd she wishes I was dead, so does my sister they say so many things to me such as why are you stilll alive and everything.
I hate my life I feel unwanted by everyone, I feel lonely, lost and confused as well.
I just do not know what to do with my life.
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I talk to a counceller on a regular basis but I don't talk about my problems to her for some reason because she comes in to my school, I have a social worker who could also help me but I've kind of got a fear of adults
why is that?