Advice please. I really want this to mean something

Time slows to a confusing whirl,
And nothing but the rhythm of heartbeats
Breaks the chilling silence of the pain
We all know is coming to our hearts.

Time crawls to an inevitable slow,
Eyes spill the words that minds cannot say
And arms entwine into each other
The fear of letting go kills the mind.

Time spins at speeds greater than light,
Every breath crushes the soul, crushing the control
That we promised we would hold onto
With trembling, frightened fingertips.

I can’t say its goodbye,
Can’t bear to say you’re gone forever
Can’t deal with losing the only person
Who ever understood who I am, who I want to be.

This can’t be it, the end is too near
The pain, it grows
It engulfs me and everything I think
Shatters my little heart into ruins.

No! This can’t be the end
This can’t be goodbye
This can’t…

Heads lower in grief
As the song of heartbeats loses its strength
The hand falls into shivering loved ones
The end of a life, cut short by pain.

Silent sobs radiate the room,
Echoing off the empty atmosphere
Her Spirit rises, floating elegantly through the open window
Free of the hurting of life

Her limited number of heartbeats
Have all ticked away
There is nothing I can do
But watch as the person I loved most in this world
Is snatched away from me
Like some bitter, twisted joke.

“Take care up there, and please
Keep watch over me
And keep me safe.
I love you so much.
Please never leave me”