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life without my partner is hurting too much. she left me 4 days ago she said she feels nothing for me, we have been together for 20 years,with the usual ups and downs of life, we always got through them.i cant see life without her, i love her with all my heart, the pain is so unbearable i cant go on.the first evening with out my angel i stood on the cliff looking down overlooking my favorite fishing spot ready too meet my maker,when it dawned on me this is my friends fav spot too and i was being selfish doing it there.i took a long look at the sea and said too myself not tonite and drove home hoping and praying she had returned.no such luck.the house is so empty without her i cant carry on the waves of emotion are killing me icant sleep eat or think straight im trying so hard but theres no point living without my dear angel.i just want the pain too stop. and the tears too dry up but they wont.i cant carry on.but im trying.
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Really sorry to hear about your loss - 20 years is a huge length of time to be in a relationship.
I know its a few hours since you posted so just wanted to find out where you're up to? Have you been able to talk to any of your friends or spend some time with others who understand what you're going thru?
If you want to talk in confidence, do contact the samaritans anytime and let us know how you get on too
Take care
But it will, in time. Sorry it's not much use.
It is going to be ok, but the first thing to do is set yourself small, manageable targets. You don't have to worry about the future, just worry about getting through today, making it through the next five minutes, the next hour, the next few hours till bedtime. You can do that, I know you can.
What makes you happy, beside your wife and son? What do you like to do? You say you like to go fishing, can you do that today? You say you have a friend who likes fishing too, can you call him and invite him fishing? If so, go somewhere safe where there are lots of people around and you won't be tempted to hurt yourself.
It will get easier, this initial stage will be the most difficult but once you get through it, as I know you will, it will gradually get easier and in time you'll start to feel happier and see the light at the end of the tunnel. There are people who care about you whose lives would be devastated if you commit suicide - your son, your friend, even your wife, who while she may no longer love you, doubtless still cares for you. You haven't lost your son. He may no longer live with you, but he will always be your son and will love and need you always.
Hang on in there, and please keep posting, we're all here to help
really pleased to hear that you're going to do some more reaching out and get support through this difficult time.
take care and let us know how you go
About a year ago my ex left me when I was coming down with severe depression, (he didn't know that at the time). Couple of months later I tried to overdose and it was the worst decision of my life. Don't put your son through that pain because what you are feeling now WILL pass at some point in the future, however if you did what you are thinking about imagine the pain your son would go through forever. Even if you don't have your partner at the mo you still have your son who loves you.
How did you get on at the Doctors?
Take care