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Suicide/Running away
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Today all I've really thought about is killing myself, or running away. I've thought everything through for both options.. down to the second. I wasn't thinking of doing it today, or even tomorrow, but it's there. In my head. And I don't know why... nothing bad has happened today, nothing out of the ordinary anyway. I just have had enough of the ordinary I self harmed this morning, and this afternoon, but nothing bad. And not in an atempt of suicide. I don't know what has come over me. Everything has just got too much for me I suppose, but the thing is there is nothing to become to much. I don't want to speak to my mum, because she'll only have a go at me for being a moody teen.
Ooohhh I just don't know what to do
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Ooohhh I just don't know what to do
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again if your anything like me it can be hard when someone close is having a go when your feeling down, it feels as if they dont care.. best way i can describe it, is they just dont understand like you do.. no one does?
My day today was a bit better but I did find myself very close to buying train ticket to a different station on my way home. I just am unhappy with myself at the moment I think, and the stuff I do.
It's really hit me that if I want to actually do the job I want then I'm going to have to work for it, and at the minute I've really fucked up my school life.
I did used to meditate everyday, but I don't so much anymore. I shall give it all another go though :-)
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